Roland and i are done. for good. this has been enough heartache to make anyone want to give up. so, i dont do this often but i surrender. i cant believe how easy it seems right now but by tomorrow it will hit me and i have a feeling my mood wont be good for quite some time ( Read more... )

im an alright mood today, even though things with the majority of the people in my life are pretty crappy, sometimes one good thing can make it all ok i suppose. i hate posting in this lately because all i get is shit from people who i dont even know. kind of defeats the purpose of having a livejournal when you get bitched out every time you write ( Read more... )

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Hey there, I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all ( Read more... )

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today was pretty horrible. i was sick all morning and lying around in bed makes me feel so much worse because i dont get anything accomplished. Last night Roland came down around 5 and we hung out at the mall, did the usual and everything was fine. until he went to leave. i dont know whats wrong with me, he leaves every monday night and goes home ( Read more... )

i feel like shit inside and out. i look like a fucking tornado ripped through me and its not my fault i get sick of my appearance all too often and atempt to fix it myself. i cant change how ugly i am and how horrible i look so i guess i should stop fucking with it. i got my septum done thursday and it went really well. painless and completely kick ( Read more... )

P.S. Children Of Bodom rocks my world

you may be wondering why i haven't been posting..well let me answer that for ya. my computer at home is a fucking piece of dirt and we dont have the internet right now. so i apologize but my life isnt very eventful anyways so youre not missing much.

peace out.

im really worried about Roland. we're talking on aol right now and hes saying things he never ever says. he's telling me things that make me feel like im having a conversation with myself, not him. hes always so happy and rude and full of himself. which ive gotten used to. i want to know whats wrong with him...and me. ive been miserable all day. my ( Read more... )