OMG ( Read more... )

He told me he dreamed last night that he was doing important work in a large bay or estuary, protecting some endangered species of spiny lobster or crab. Because of this he was out on a small motorized dinghy ('like the ones the alligator hunters use' he told me, which I assume to mean sort of humble and a little rusty and dubious-looking) with his ( Read more... )

that very night after posting that last entry, we had a fight. He decided to be a passive-aggressive bitch about some things. I called him out on it. He didn't like it. We spent two days being raw and sore over it I think. I really had to fight down my nausea and fear and take the lead on pushing for reconciliation. We did reconcile, and we've ( Read more... )

I keep wanting to post here. But there's been no time. And my life is not set up to give me time, space, peace and quiet, or internet access at the same time. I have those things individually, just not together ( Read more... )

I GOT THE JOB ( Read more... )

Today I was a pauper and I hung out with 'kings'. They wanted my company, and to pick my brain ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning before him. And I rolled over and laid my head on his chest, and put my hand over his heart, kinda, and without opening his eyes, he immediately clasped his hand over mine, and wrapped his other arm around my shoulders, nestling me close, turning his chin toward my head and resting his beard lightly on top of my hair ( Read more... )

We're… skittish of each other but recovering. Some good things have happened- he left to run an errand and when he came back to the office he wasn't so mad, but both wounded, we held our tongues in check. There might be more we could each say to each other but we are weighing the cost of every word; neither of us relish conflict ( Read more... )

Goddammit ( Read more... )

Lately I feel fairly secure about our relationship, and I don't really know why. I feel like he has… 'settled down' or something, like something in him that was a flighty-bird energy has just… relaxed onto its perch or something. Either that or I'm getting better at accepting his non-verbal cues in lieu of him actually saying "I love you ( Read more... )