okay, so lucky survived the night but it got worse. all the fault of these fuckin stupid ppl who claim to know about dogs, save them from dead in france and let them fuckin die here in germany coz they want to SAVE MONEY... I so could cry when i think about it. he's finally in a very good clinic now, my chef called me this morning at 9 to tell me. ( Read more... )

dear god, i did never trust in you but if you are there please save lucky.

:'(

This probably might be my last entry, maybe not ,I dont know ( Read more... )

I'm so sore I can hardly walk, I got a cold and feel meh, I just slept few hours and now I'm trembling coz I'm freezing here but ah well besides that I feel... well I felt good all day but now I'm missing few ppl and keep on thinking too much aaaaaand yea. anyway I'm too cold to type, night ( Read more... )

i made a huge entry earlier but i deleted it again. it was just too patethic. i worked alone today and i had way too much time to think. i realised that nobody cares and i could lie dead in my flat for days, nobody would notice. but ah well...

i always claim i dont need anybody, well i am wrong, i need you so badly ( Read more... )

again I hate this night.

and i miss dan im so quiet with him lately and i hate that too.

I definitely hated this weekend and even tho I hate getting up so early I'm fuckin glad it's over. It's 6:45am for me now and I gotta go to work in few mins. Had a weird dream tonight but hardly can remember... good for me I think ( Read more... )

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HLEP ME IM SO DURNK1!!11!!! LOLOL

wtf? how could i think this would ever end? if things clear up the next shit happens. I argued with dan earlier again... i hate arguing with him, he means far too much to me. well it was no proper argument but he said something that really pissed me off and I get bitchy sometimes, especially when i feel like shit and today i definitely do (yea like ( Read more... )