wwweeeeeeeelllllllllll..... since you guys have all read my journal now ( Read more... )

I feel horrible ( Read more... )

I think Eric may have read my journal ( Read more... )

God
damn
it.

Why can't he just get the fuck out of my life?
Why do I feel so bad?
god
damn
it

god muther fucking damn it to muther fucking hell on muther fucking earth.

I rely too much on my fantasies of what love should be that the reality seems too harsh ( Read more... )

I have totally let myself DOWN ( Read more... )

well since this is my journal i can be honest ( Read more... )

Have I yet mentioned my fear of guys and relationships ( Read more... )

From now on I am not spending my money on anyone else. I am only spending it on me, and only the bare minimum. I can't even buy my meds right now. I've got about a fourth of a bottle and thats gotta last me until next paycheck. So here's to not eating for a week ( Read more... )

it's hard being the 'happy' one ( Read more... )