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[It’s been lingering on my mind for quite a long time now, but I actually just realised today that it was time to close up and say farewell. Don’t ask me why it took so long, but I think things have to come to a resolution in your mind before you can force them into an action, and my mind had to do that, to wrap everything up before I could just get on with it.
I’m rather sad I didn’t make it to a one year anniversary, but that’s alright, I originally only created Simon to entertain Damon, and look where it took me. He’s a difficult guy to play, and I never really felt I sunk into him well, even after all the months. He never felt right and I basically hate every entry I ever wrote. I haven’t signed him on in probably more than a month and I only updated recently because of the lovely appearance of my balls. Those were all the signs that playing Simon wasn’t what I was cut out for.
Because I’m a sentimental schmuck (who’da thunk?), I just want to say some stuff to various people (all ooc of course), because they mean a lot to me while I played this role. Beware, it’s awfully reminiscent of yearbook signings.
Damon- The one who got me here, you troublesome buggar. You’re lovely beyond belief even if Damon ripped my poor boy to shreds. Thank you for encouraging me and telling me I was good even though I know I wasn’t very. And I forgive you for never writing with me. >:O
Dave- Never forget Simon and Dave’s game of “scrabble” that raised eyebrows. Dave was probably Simon’s best friend here and stuck by him through thick and thin and I appreciate that as well. BFF!!!
Alex- You must know how much I love you despite how much Simon and Alex are grrr at each other. I loved that interaction immensely, it was great. You put Simon in one of your icons! And you called him feisty. All very good things. Thanks for creating lovely drama with me. :-*
Suzi- Whether you’re reading this or not, I love you for being Simon’s first romantic interest here. I still think they were seriously cute and it’s a shame they stopped talking completely after Noel punched him. You were always so sweet, thank you and I love you.
Jonny- Oh you. I could tell you how much I love you a million times and it wouldn’t be enough. Too bad Simon and Jonny never got it on, but they had their swooning, proposals, and pet names to make up for it. Please please don’t ever forget “THE DRUGS DON’T WORK, BUT MY DICK SURE DOES!!” or whatever the fuck it was, haha.
Claire- You never did draw Simon in that scarf Claire made him, but I love you to bits anyway. Thank you for being Simon’s favourite Blur wife. :-*
Ang- I will miss those late night/early morning conversations very much, darling. I really loved Simon and Angie’s interaction while it lasted, and you were such a delight with always sending me songs and being so cute and sweet. I love you very much, thank you.
My Balls- Oh, little (or not?) ones. It’s a shame you didn’t get here when Simon actually got action, but you were a funny little surprise that kept me laughing. Write me some poetry and send it to me on perfumed paper, won’t you? I want one that starts “Two lesbians, a pagan and a jew walk into a sushi bar...”
Richard- I think more than anything I should apologise to you. You’re a lovely person and I enjoyed Rich and Simon’s little escapades muchly, so I feel like shit to cop out on you like this. Thank you so much for making me/Simon feel special when everything was going to hell, I love you for it.
Amanda- You could possibly be my Ross (and I know you’ll understand) because this seems the most difficult to write. You gave me a reason to have and enjoy this role for the majority of my time here. I do want to apologise for all the shit I put you through. You stuck by me/Simon for it all and I still don’t know why. They were such an odd couple, but I liked them and they fit strangely together. You were really the one that kept me here so long, I want you to know. I actually have a scrapped entry I wrote about Amanda that I should type up and send you, just for kicks. Anyway, thank you for everything, I love you. :-*
Want to know some of my secrets? I don’t actually know Simon’s birthday. November 3rd was a random day people and I thought up because we wanted Simon to be a Libra but were stupid and forgot that early November is Scorpio. Whoops? Simon’s wife’s name is Maddy/Madeline. I found this out about a month ago, when it was absolutely too late to even use it. God damn. Simon is more than likely still with his wife, unlike my story line to divorce her off. I have no idea if Simon has children. I sincerely don’t think he does, but you never know. I’m not positive how old Simon is. No website ever says for sure. What Simon is doing career wise these days is completely anyone’s guess, because I sure as hell don’t know. I’ve found that if I act confidently about these facts being true, I can make people believe I really know everything about Simon Tong when I actually know jack shit.
I have no intention of saying “I’m never coming back!!” because who knows, I could get to a point where I really miss playing the old lug and come back. If all the former Verve came here, I’d most certainly jump on board and return. It’s really unclear, just as everything is. For now, this journal is closed. If you don’t want a dead journal on your friend’s list, just remove me and I’ll certainly return the favour, but I mostly just keep everyone on because I can. I’m disappointed Simon never got to fight with Graham, that would have been fun. I’m positive I’ll be seeing most of you in another form, which doesn’t make things too sad. Other than that, love you all, thanks for, oh, you know, everything. ]