listening to your heart
peircing your thigh
my appetite grows
i close my eyes
smooth my hands over it
lose myself in its very being
smell the memories
lean forward and crack your back
smell the smell
left limp on the floor
dying, bleeding, smiling
left limp on the floor

a small slip of the razor
eyes roll back
washing down the drain
what have i done
i burn my leg
now it all has to go
a spiritual liquidation
she'll regret it tommorow
absentmindedness comes with age
until her brave forests return
she'll supress urges
urges for freedom
fear of hope
left longing for that general peice

all alone
dealing cards
so much pressure in my head
the phone disconnects
im so sorry for my sins
that story was too long
lost interest and fell backwards
my feet are dry
but wheres my future
im falling on the floor
falling into the downs
falling into myself
falling farther behind
and you dont even see it

watching the water bead off the window
you are a loser
feeling a cold chill
its 2:26
i can smell you like tommorow
i dont even have to blink
poofy hair and circus tents
then rain outside the train
coming closer to the breach
im so weak
you dont know what to do with myself

the tracks still
unmotivated
all i hear is the clicking
trying to get there
walking in the dark
it seemed like such a good idea
the swift flashing
the whipping noises
that man with the bag
you are all i want for x-mas

she looked robotic
clumsy limbs
hair weaving in and out of the pockets of air
the town changing
revolved around what we hope is true
but to see her walk
trugding across the street
cars passing her by
he was on chapter 23
balancing life and work
learning to live with an artificial limb

theres an infection in my ear
distinction in my heart
loose of what ive learned
periodic movements
light music in the background
give me a list
tell me what to do
train my heart to do its thing
smooth neck
renewed lovers
can i see
can you open my door
im paralyzed
ive fallen and i cant wake up

im seeing things
different colors
ball point pens
i love you for who you are
sitting in the sun legs gapping
is this where i belong
short tempers
petty cash
flip flops and little brown toes
and a gold toe ring thats been there forever
kiss me and tell me you love me
in the dark and in the cold
kiss me and tell me something

3 sparrows
songbirds at best in the dark tunnel
above ground mindless
brain eating zombies
my biggest fear
my eyes are all blurry or maybe its the world
growing more pale and grey
looking around
i realize
i can cross only at crosswalks

shutters all closed
the strong winds have come
dont i know you from the hookah
buzzed heads
why cant i find the one
i carry the small
have you lost it
why am i sweating
do you think shell be back
something about my breathing
and i take a look around
left arm heart attack
no ventitilation
we are all suspects