but even at our swiftest speed we couldnt break from the concrete

[sinful_serenity]

ill just pray and pray and pray until my hands melt together and my throat turns to dust. im on my way there, please dont tell me shes on her way out. i dream of nothing but empty hospital beds. amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye, i'm thinking of what sarah said. that love is watching someone

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[exhale_thepain]

i love you more than you'll ever know.
and i've been exactly where you are.
if you ever need anything from me, even just my ear, i'm right here

[sinful_serenity]

thanks kai
i know you are going through a hard time with the boy so im thinking about you. fuck boyfriends kai, i know it feels like you have nothing.. but you have yourself. and all the people that love you. but most importantly yourself because you'll never change or cheat or manipulate yourself the way other people can. idk.
its hard not to think of all our good times here in maine.

i found that blue "cheer" shirt, the one we put a heart on the front.

i wore it apple picking this morning with my grandma.

[exhale_thepain]

haha, you know whats funny about that?
i found it a couple weeks ago and smiled and wore it to math class.
As for boys, it's really not the boy killing me, he's just a very last snap of the heart. Especially since he was the one I knew would never hurt me. This summer has been awful, people I love the most keep getting torn away...it's just a lot to take.

Now, when you have moment to call me, I would love to hear your voice, plus, I need some wimsical, worldly words of wisdom from the wonderful Mercy.

[exhale_thepain]

p.s. last line = death cab for cutie = <3 <3

[thegreatargos]

beautiful writing.
hope everything goes ok.

[sinful_serenity]

im sorry i snapped at you
ill call you when i get back
<3 jarjar

[___dontask]

im right by your side. and i will pray and pray. and pray and pray untill i cant think of anything to say any more. im with you in spirit. i love you. i will hold you while you go through this

[sinful_serenity]

i love you and i swear ill talk to you about this whole mess soon i just dont want to right now <3 im still thinking of you

[ex_madloves]

i like the last thing you wrote. "love is watching someone die."

[sinful_serenity]

thx <3

[notliketherest1]

That was a very poetic last line. It makes me happy to see that someone hasn't neglected lj and stuck with it. hope ur doin ok...

[sinful_serenity]

thx chris i hope everything is going well for you