You know, I could be much happier if I could just forget or erase certain memories from my mind. To be ultimately appeased with the things that disquiet our subtle living ways would probably be most alluring by many. Perhaps this yearn for perfection is a downfall of those who never give what they’re living a chance. To fumble around for these ( Read more... )

I fucking hate being home. Yeah, I got over it and have alright times here. But if someone else has a problem or is annoyed or upset or pissed off, I make it worse or... become the reason they are feeling the way they are. And I just feel like crap and most of the time (not as much recently)I go onto lj and post my crap. I mean who even reads it ( Read more... )

I need to get away from some people... The current social structure at school is so lame. I don't care to loose anyone there, they don't care for me for one, many are two faced, some are to wrapped up in what they started in previous years, and won't let go but try to drag the life now into it. Its a drama cesspool. People are postponing choices ( Read more... )

Life now, people I know to be there. No longer have to think "who will be friends down the road". There are only a few people to care if are there or not. Why worry about everyone, everything... I can't control it all, just what controls me ( Read more... )

I never understand my family's intentions. They are some of the most confusing people I know. I don't know what there attempt at changing mood at random moments through out the day is going to do other then make me want to leave.

Anyways, thanksgiving is tomorrow. I don't think its going that great of a day tomorrow, so lets hope it turns out ok.

It is easy to create a temporary filter with life's constant bringing of unwanted situations. But to actually have an accomplishment of removing one from your happy and wanting life makes everything seem better. I feel like I have control and no longer have to push things to the back of my mind hopping that it isn't really there. Not only that, I ( Read more... )

I found this poem, I wrote it in middle school, its really depressing thinking of me being depressed then. I don't remember when I wrote it. I just found it going though things ( Read more... )

So my last post wasn't such a hit to anyone else...but thats ok ( Read more... )

So I was going through some old files, and I ran into a collection of deep thoughts from a friend. Id thought I'd let you enjoy these also... They bring back memories ( Read more... )

It is something to beable to move someone with a phrase and to be able to be remembered by the words you use. They are one of the greatest things remembered about you after you're gone. If you aren't remembered, then you never existed.