so it turns out im a lying cheating dirty fucking pussy. it all could have been ok, if i hadnt have been so stupid. if i could have been more in control, if i wasnt so fucked up. its true what emily says, im sure it was me, im going to go ahead and take all the blame. now there is only one thing i can do, be honest, i dont imagine its going ( Read more... )

i really wish you would stop pretending to be me, its getting old really quick and you arent fooling anyone. give it up already, youre not good at being me (sending her your little notes while im sleeping on her lap obviously not emailing her doesnt work). fess up to it, tell her who you are and maybe that will give it some credibility, but for ( Read more... )

i just dont understand... why?

im not the person i want to be, in fact im not a good person at all, and this makes me very sad...

I dont normaly post these but this one was good


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so we went in and got our new house keys today... this is going to be crazy we now have 5 days to have everything moved out of our apartment and everything cleaned up. wish us luck.

p.s. pics to come.

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started running today. should be going around 10:30ish ever night with chris. hopefully i can keep up on this and get my fat ass back into shape. all i want to do is look good in a two piece is that too much to ask?

why does life have to suck so much sometimes, ive had the worst week of my life this week. i cant aparently trust my freinds, and my faimly is dieing slowly. i went to spokane this weekend, and i had a two of my best friends stab me in the back like ive never had happen before, and then after my first day back at work on monday my father called ( Read more... )

had a very fucked up dream this morning, then my alarm clock went off, and now i need to start making some changes...