things are good. the weather is good. i can't wait to see my baby. time is going by so fast. i feel like i can hardly keep up with myself. big decision making time is almost here. i don't know what to do. i hope i get positive signs or any sign at all will do. i want more than what i've got. this band is coming to town and i'm so excited. ( Read more... )

ah valentine's day. the holiday designed to make people feel like crap. i personally don't feel like crap. i guess that's because i have somebody but i can only imagine the journal entries today and tomorrow where many will be sharing their stories of valentine's day woes. but even when i don't have anybody i still don't care about today. so ( Read more... )

it seems like forever since i've last written. not much has been going on lately. the holidays marked my first holidays without the one i used to love. so that was kind of hard. but it also brought on some relief. even though i miss i'm so better off without. so there's a chance that s and i might start hanging out. k seems to think it's a ( Read more... )

"there is no end to the sky and the waters. how well they accompany sadness."

"to live is to hurt others, and through others, to hurt oneself".

camus

this was the first full weekend i had spent at home in a while. it was nice. cooked dinner, drank wine and watched movies. i do believe that "the day trippers" is one of the funniest movies ever. no matter how many times i watch that damn thing i still laugh just as hard as i did the first time i saw it. i think it might even be funnier to ( Read more... )

so our paths crossed the other night. strange because k and i were in the middle of discussing you. i was lagging behind. i turned around to take a look at you. you turned around too. what for? i'm not insinuating that you turned around to look at me or anything like that, but you still turned around. our encounters, although few and far ( Read more... )

i know a guy who has had doors opened for him that most people don't get to have opened. people, if into what he's into, would do anything to be in his shoes. but for some really fucked up reason he's letting his g/f make life decisions for him or is making huge life decisions based on what she wants him to do. i can't make sense of it. she has ( Read more... )

some times i forget about writing. some times it's hard to find or make the time. some times life is just so steady and pleasant that i don't feel the need to write about anything. thanksgiving was great. it was like a 3 day party. i had enough food to last me for a while, of course i didn't stop eating but... maybe it was enough food for a ( Read more... )

i'm breaking her heart. i'm so sorry for this. i don't know why i've chosen the actions that i have. it wasn't anything. i don't know what to do to make her happy. or how to make our situation any better. i know a few ideas but i don't know how good of ideas that they are. i feel like i'm trapped. i'm free to do what i want but i know every ( Read more... )

i just wanted to write so i could use the thirsty guy. he's my favorite.