did you ever see me look at you when you were smoking, did you ever think of how i wonder what you were thinking? i bet not ( Read more... )

one month and 3 days -- we didn't speak

but tonight i got the guts to pull you aside and talk
we hooped
then we talked more
we are friends again

god, how much did i miss you? if i told you, you wouldn't believe me.

BEST FUCkING HOrriblE day OF mY PATHETIC LIFE

fuck you, i never needed you...wanted you.

please don't ignore me.

S E R E N I T Y   N O W   !

WHAT THE FUCK...CAN LIFE SUCK ANYMORE?? i think i am going crazy... time doesn't seem to move but i'm ahead of the gang. what the fuck?
my head always hurts...do i need some drugs or maybe just a tiny fix.
i love steve with a passion -- he is my best friend --  always ( Read more... )

oh take me back to the stars

and into the darkness i sail
my dying words couldn't explain my soul equation
too many metaphors
less truth
i don't want your fucking answers
i deserve everything in which i needed to escape myself to find
nothing else is worthy
my apologies...but no worries

i'm going back to the stars...
DON'T ASK ME WHAT I AM ( Read more... )

i will let you down, i will make hurt.

i wont be around this for awhile. i'm just outta it. if yah wanna keep in touch

aim- sillyredsweater
email- bumpercarblues@yahoo.com

looong weekend. so many people are dying. Ai's grandpa and Paige's father. god..it's fucking spring people! nick won his fight. i told him he would. he's alive and well, thank god. he's feeling so good he decided he's going to go to worlds and win again for the third time. i told him "whatever you want kid" he would do anything anyways. we fight ( Read more... )

so basketball tourney missed first game for the ACT..my team lost. next two games i played we won by like 20 each game. that's good at least. what else...uhh oh yeah..nick's in the hospital with a heart condition. he's in intensive care.

school tomorrow. *sigh*

nothing changes people just grow