It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And ( Read more... )

I can't believe I struck out for the 3rd time in a year. This time wth Joe Tiano. I really thought we were going to have a good relationship and that it was going to last. He was so sweet and good to me. He was just too into himself and his job to give enough time to me. I know that it wasn't fair to me, but I wasn't ready to end it. I don't ( Read more... )

i am so fucking stupid. matt and kurt both fucked with my head and my heart. when the hell will i ever learn, huh? god damn it, what the hell did i deserve this for, again?!

BIRTHDAY LOVE:

Michelle Hughes (Assumption) wrote
at 12:38am
happy birthday!

April Han wrote
at 12:51am
happy birthday perezzzzz :)

Carolyn Ortiz (SUNY Albany) wrote
at 1:11am
happy birthday :) see you in a few days!!

Katie Bigelow wrote
at 1:37am
happy birthday liz

Peter Chaloner (Merrimack) wrote
at 7:57am
Happy Birthday Sizzles! Hope you have a ( Read more... )

ooooh smile smile smile ( Read more... )

i still love him. ugh. even when he's a jerk to me at a bar. am i a glutton for punishment or what? no one can ever tell me getting over the love of your life shouldnt take so long...try it and see what it feels like. my heart aches every time i see him. i guess now im just waiting for when life gives me something to make me happy again, i know ( Read more... )

i just wish i never had to see him ever again. yesterdy wooud have been our 5 year anniversary and if it hadnt hurt me enough my night ended seeing him. and he offered me a fucking shot glass. fuck you. coward. i hate this hate hate hate. get out of my head and my life bc you arent welcome anymore, bc you made it perfectly clear you dont want me ( Read more... )

i need a boyfriend. i want a new boyfriend. this just isn't right anymore. it's been 3 1/2 months since matt broke my heart and I cannot stand how happy he is. he so clearly moved on months and months ago, i bet he'll have a new girlfriend by the time school starts. damn it damn it damn it. wish id never ever ever met him. id definitely go ( Read more... )

this is the BEST song I have heard that COMPLETELY describes what Matt did to me and how he makes me feel, I feel like I wrote this song because it is so close to everything I am feeling... Nick Lachey is goooood ( Read more... )

so i am a stupid, stupid girl....i read through really old entries and came upon messages from matt. telling me how much he loves me and always will, and how he will always be there for me. i miss him more than words can say, and i know my entries are angry, but im hurt and confused. i just loved him so much, and still do. and he used to feel ( Read more... )