its so horrible how someone can go from loving u with all their heart to not even acknowledging u at a party. matt didnt say a word, not even a hi to me. it really is so painful knowing just how much someone doesnt want anything to do with me. i might as well have just introduced myself to him, he treated me like a perfect stranger. last night was ( Read more... )

shed too many tears over you ( Read more... )

what a fucking waste of almost 5 years of my life! damn it I am so stupid, should have stayed away when I could have. Who the fuck does he think he is, treating me like im a piece of shit? he was god damn lucky to have me. i just tore up so many memories, it felt really good...theres nothing of him in my room or any where...anything and ( Read more... )

dreams are a place to escape the realities of life...but not for me...i'm either dreaming about matt being a total asshole to me or dreaming that he is the most amazing sweet guy who really does care about me more than anything. its absolute torture. i just woke up from a really wonderful one where he swept me into his arms. earlier though my body ( Read more... )

No matter what I do
I'll always wait for you
So I guess that's, that's what I got to do...
And what else can I say
It will do no good anyway
As long as you know that I'll be waiting...

this is freaking de ja vu all over again...its been 3 weeks since matt ended everything with me and he's on my mind every freaking second. try as hard as i do to get him out of there it's not working. i feel the same way i did a year ago. that asshole is sitting over at his house not giving me a second thought, just like before. im already out of ( Read more... )

i hate not having a boyfriend...no that's not true... i hate not having matt

ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHY I DID THIS...EXTREME, RIDICULOUS BOREDOM IS THE ONLY THING I CAN THINK OF ( Read more... )

love teaches you so much about yourself and life...i just wish it didn't hurt you so much

i hope there's regret and knowing what a great thing was given up. it was great, special, and now its all gone, hope there is regret bc there wont be anything like it ever again, nothing will be as good as what it was, what was had...just regret over losing/letting something so good go.