Or not. I think part of whats going on in my head right now has a lot to do with what's going on in my life right now. I am greatful to have a place to stay but with absolutely to privacy its almost not worth it. Mike's dad just comes waltz into our room today while we were gone and stuff. Freakin my poor cat out (Mika hates him more then most ppl ( Read more... )

Mike and I had a fight last night and it brought some things to realization ( Read more... )

I'm so freakin lonely. Not having a car or a job or a Mike around most of the time. lol. except on weekends I only see him for 3-4 hours and he is usually playing video games.
And tonight (or this morning for everyone else) I'm feeling extra lonely.

In my life style, partially Mike's too, there are certain elements of trust that have to exsist.
I trust him to protect me. He trusts me to take care of him when he's sick.
But there's one thing I dont trust him on.
As I mentioned in one of my past postings I was cleaning house with friends. Friends that are harmful to me and my relationships. ( Read more... )

Sorry I havent been posting much. Been caught up in the latest expansion of WoW. Game just sucks you right in! Also some other stuff I am dealing with. Write more later! Night

Juggling my panick attacks is hard enough. Dealing with Mike's grumpiness and my tendency to shut down on top of it is really starting to suck.
I am heading to bed (yes before 7 am). I think I need to catch up on sleep and just rest for a good 12 hours. Of course it wont last 12 hours but I can hope!

Over the past two years I've lost a lot of friends. Not to death (except 1), but just because I cant take it any more. Like Wes' comment on my FB. As well as a few others who have just been so immature, lied repeatedly, or insulted openly my other friends.
Look there's a very big difference between expressing who you are and being a total douche ( Read more... )

So I think most of you can see my FB. I informed the guy who left that message that he was being rude and disrespectful. So he removed me from his friends list even though we have been friends and known each other since 7th grade.
*shakes head* fucking wow.
Any one who knows me knows I wont tolerate that shit (the being disrespectful to others shit ( Read more... )

So for the last few weeks I have been working through quotes from Criminal Minds on my FB. Right now I am on season 2. I've gotten a few interesting responses but one I got today annoyed the shit out of me. Though that isnt hard to do at 6 in the morning when I havent slept yet (heading to bed soon I promise).
This was the quote:
‎"We can easily ( Read more... )

I hate my periods. They are extremely painful for me because of my endromitriosis. I think I will go curl up in a ball and wtch a movie.