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Ever get the haunting feeling that your life is spiraling in a direction you wished it wouldn't go? That life is making choices for you that you normally wouldn't make in a hundred years?

That's some scary shit.

I haven't had much to update about. Hence why I haven't.

Right now I'm listening to "Luck be a Lady" by Frank Sinatra. If this song was true I would never find any luck. Now I eventually get lucky but if luck was a lady I would never get lucky. This is what I think about when I'm bored.

So right now I have a "girlfriend" that I haven't seen in 3 days or so. Haven't really talked to her either. To be completly honest I don't know if we're actually dating anymore. Maybe I missed a meeting and wasn't informed. Also I had dinner with my mom which ended up as a lecture about how my life has no meaning right now. How I have no direction ( Read more... )

Man, even though I don't have a job right now, life seems pretty good. I don't think I have any real complaints other than being bored due to the lack of a job. So it took damn near two years to get this good. Let's hope it stays.

Who would've thought there was such a thing as a silver lining. Actually upon closer inspection it looks more bronze. But hey that's still better than I'm used to.

You know what the one thing that can always make you feel worse than you already do is? Knowing that you really don't have a right to feel bad. Knowing that there are people out there in much worse situations and yet you still want to feel sorry for yourself. Admitting this is just the beginning. Now if only I could find a way to stop it.

I fucked up. Theres really no other way to put it.

Who thought I'd ever say that but I do. When Christians have a run of bad luck all they have to do is believe God has a plan and it will get better. I envy that kind of faith (even if I find it completely unrational). They truly believe that if they have faith some spiritual being will look out for them. In a way it's like they can't make a mistake ( Read more... )

So later this year is going to be very entertaining. There are so many shows coming up that I don't know if I'll be able to make them all but I will give it my best to do so. Strike Anywhere is playing in October. I'm not a huge fan but since it is intown I figure why not. November, however, will seem to be the most eventful. On the 27th Gwar is ( Read more... )