things so far have been well. i moved into the new place. i am still unpacking. the place is nice, i just need a couch and bed and i will be happy for a while. until i can afford a new tv at least. there is a girl. i have not been talking about her to anyone. i am trying to keep it quiet because i dont want to jinx things. that seems to be ( Read more... )

so my last idea for money is a total bust. even if i get approved for the apt tomorrow, i will not be able to afford to move in. i just dont know what im going to do. i am completely screwed.

well i am officially terrified. i have less than a week to not only find a place to live but to come up with the money to move in. this is not something i see happening. i have no idea what i am going to do. this is the second time this year that i have been in this same position. i am ever so slightly in a better position this time around as ( Read more... )

so it appears the year of dashed hopes continues. i have no idea where i will be living in a week and a half. even if i can find a place i do not know how i will be able to afford all the the expenses associated with moving. this is just the disappointment that is foremost in my mind. there have been more than a hand full of others so far this ( Read more... )

i am so worried about everything. i'm also so lonely, but at the same time i dont want to be around anyone. i wish i could find someone who could be here and keep me company with out feeling the need to fill the emptiness with idol chit chat. or if we did need to speak, someone that could show a genuine interest in the things that i have to say ( Read more... )

as of late i feel very much like a coin that has been tossed in the air. turning and turning, no idea where or how i'm going to land. i still do not know where i am going to be living in a couple weeks, nor do i know how i am going to pay for it. i am already far behind on my bills. the best option i have right now is moving all the way to ( Read more... )

well i am utterly fucked. since anna wants to remove herself from the lease i have to reapply for my appartment. i do not make enough money to pass the income requirment to stay here. so i have 3 options: 1. get anna to stay on the lease 2. find someone else to cosign with me 3. move out. i have less than a month to get one of those things to ( Read more... )

So i honestly don't even know what to think about this year anymore. It has been the biggest roller coaster of my life. there has been no middle ground. Just major peaks and valleys. Its sees as though the universe has been lifting me as high as my modest life will allow only to drop me to unfathomable depths. Then, just as I begin to think my ( Read more... )

is pimping easy?

Aww Hell Yeah!!!

i'm just not sure how to feel anymore. one moment i am cautiously optimistic. the next i am depressed and lonely again. i guess it's part of the process of healing. i can't just expect to be better all of a sudden. i suppose i will just keep on pushing on and try to live. who knows what tomorrow may hold. only one way to find out...