I went to see the oncologist today and found out my decision may not be so easy. He is leaning away from surviellance due to the fact that my tumor makers where negative pre surgery. So now I can either go with rplnd or chemo. I am still trying to take it all in. I thought i had my desicion made before seeing the doc today. I am going to take a few ( Read more... )

It is growing with in me.
I am clueless it is there.
Attacking me from the inside.

Will it harm me beyond repair?
Will I suffer like those before?
Will it come face to face with me?

It has no place in my life.
I will not let it control me.
I have already beaten the beast.

So I went to the doctors yesterday and got some good news there is a 80% chance that I am cured. So now I have to decide if I want to do chemo and take care of the 20% chance that I might not be cured or do surviellance which requires going to the doctors every 3-4 months for the next 2 years. If I do surviellance and it comes back then I will ( Read more... )

Its been a few days since I have posted anything. I have had alot going on in my head. I am still waiting impatiently to find out what type and stage cancer I have. I find out tomorrow. I am hoping I dont need to have anymore surgery because if I do the next one will require a 3-4 day hospital stay ( Read more... )

I talk to the Doc today and the pathology report came back and it was in fact cancer. I have a ct scan set up for in the morning to find out if the cancer has spread to anywhere else. Thank you to all that have sent me prayers and good vibes. I will update when I know more. I cant wait until tomorrow when I can actually shower.

I made it out of surgery alive. Still in a lot of pain but what can you expect after having a 5 inch incision. I have to go in for a ct scan in 2 days to find out if the cancer has spread anywhere else. until then I am laid up in the easy chair with nothing to do but watch tv.

Today I found out the I more then likely have testicular cancer. They wont know for sure until after they remove my left testicle and disect it. It is a mass about the size of ping pong ball. So I am off to the hospital at 7am tomorrow for surgery. After that I will be laid up for about a week so feel free to message me I wont be able to do ( Read more... )

Off to see the doctor heres to hoping I get to keep all my body parts.

The weight of the world bearing down.
Being pulled in every direction.
Trying to fight the negative.

How do I stop the descent?

Can't be far the bottom.
Searching for a way out.
Gasping for air.

When will it come to an end?

Karma seeking revenge.
Paying for sins.
Accepting the hand dealt.

How do I rise again?

I spent most of yesterday at the doctors and/or the er. The good news is I still have my testicles. The bad news is when they did an ultrasound they found several small masses which could or could not be cancer. I have to go see a urologist this week to learn more. On the bright side I dont remember the last time I have been felt up so much in one