2 years ago I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrom. I didn't really give a shit, but fact is that I'm pretty socially awkward. This is why my comments are always hidden and it takes me ages to reply. It's not that I don't care I'm just SO socially anxious that I'm too scared to read my LJ inbox. Seriously. Literally.

I have a boyfriend
I graduated

I weighed in at 89.2 (not lbs lol) this morning, which is exactly my HW of 10 months ago. This also means I'm heavier than my mom and that I'm close to the 90 kg/200 lbs mark AND THAT IS JUST SO FUCKING RIDICULOUS MY GOD.

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I quit drinking, 1 week down, 51 to go ( Read more... )

If anyone feels bad beacause they:

-are in the middle of a binging  day week
-ignore the fact that they just lose have to lose weight and rather just keep eating
-gained
-ruined all the effort they made the past few weeks
-are sticking their head in the sand

don't worry, there'll always be one person who's fucking it up more than you do, and that would ( Read more... )

                       
1301 calories

40% carbs
43% protein
15% fat

Not that much, and all healthy, but a lot compared to the past 2 days. But I was just fed up with fasting. This is how I want to eat when I'm 'recovered' and 'maintaining my weight'.

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I just want to puke so bad. Nothing ed related, I just want to throw up to get everything out. To cleanse myself. I'm so fucking stressed, finals in less than three weeks, holiday in 6.. I am so fucking fat/gross/whatever. I know I can pull losing 20 + pounds but I have to DO it. And I just sit here watching movies. ( Read more... )

Something I really regret are my fresh stretchmarks. When I hit puberty I grew a lot of them, but they've faded over the years and I'm fine with it cause it's a natural progress I guess. But I really do hate my newer ones, still thick and purple, from my recent weight gain. My old ones were inevitable, these are just a plain pity.

For 9 weeks straight I'll be concentrating on losing weight, learning my ass off for finals and making as much money as possible. So how did I do?

Week 14

- 2 days were good food-wise
- 3 days were meh
- 2 days were just bad (vodka-coke, beer, cake, chocolate covered raisins, fried eggs with cheese, etc.)

I did not learn for my finals, but I did rock my ( Read more... )