Mentoring for the freshman pre-orientation program was harder than I expected. I didn't expect that all of the other mentors would be best friends and that I would be the odd girl out. The other mentors gathered naturally together to discuss things and usually forgot or simply didn't bother to include me, so half the time I didn't know what was ( Read more... )

I get so upset when my ex-friends Facebook me. I almost want to say, "How dare you." Who do you think you are, having the nerve to say the things you do to me anymore? Yeah, you abandoned me for nearly all of the last school year, and somehow you have the nerve to ask me to vote for you be a model for some company. You were okay with not talking me ( Read more... )

going back to school in two days.

I'm beginning to wish that I was staying in Maine for college this year. It was important for me to leave the state to have the new experiences that I did, but the end of this summer is making me realize how good my friends here are to me and how much fun I used to have with them. I'm leaving all of this for a lonely single dorm. What doesn't kill ( Read more... )

He poured the coffee ( Read more... )

I slammed the door and threw my car keys down really hard when I came high last night. I was trying to walk into the house and escape to my bedroom fairly quickly, so I didn't realize how hard I was slamming everything. Sucking up today and cleaning the house before my mom comes home.

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Soo happy these past few days. :) Went tanning nearly everyday this week with friends since their work places are finally giving them days off. Hookah tomorrow night to celebrate my friend's last bio class. Enjoying home as much as I can before leaving for school ( Read more... )

I'm having nightmares about going back to school.

I don't want to go back to college in the fall. I don't mean I don't want to continue college. I don't want to be in that city. On that campus. I'm afraid that the loneliness will come flooding back. I feel so much safer being away from that place.

I had a nightmare this morning. My ex was on AIM and his profile was filled love quotes and the name of the new girl in his life & I started having a breakdown in the dream, & it felt like the breakup period all over again. He never puts anything in his AIM profile in real life, nor is he seeing anyone. & I feel like I'm completely over the breakup ( Read more... )