I had such an odd dream last night. Dreamed that I was back at college. My dorm room was large, completely square, and was a separate building from everything else. It wasn't set on the ground; it had stairs leading up to the front door. Three of the walls were lined with large windows, and I kept the blinds open so people could see inside. Inside ( Read more... )

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I try not to be sad. If it can be helped, sadness is a waste of emotion and time. Often, trying to keep that emotion at bay, it becomes overwhelming. I wonder if this is how I'm going to be for my whole life. Sometimes I feel like I've made no progress in my 20 years. So, I figure this: don't wait around for things to change, to suddenly be happier ( Read more... )

this summer, i decided i can get my tanning and exercise together. i mean, what is the point of lying immobile on the beach? that time can be used to burn some calories and get a tan. anyways, the palest part of my body that needs the most tanning are my legs - the rest of me tans pretty well ( Read more... )

minutes after posting my last entry, my friend called to ask if i would sleep over at her house. i told her i didn't know, because i am sick and didn't want to infect her with my germs. she said she has cold as well, so it wouldn't really matter ( Read more... )

Home, finally, after a long month. I did well in my summer biology class: A- for lecture, B+ for the lab. The internship was uneventful. Commercial real estate is clearly not for me, but I'm still happy to have that experience. It also strengthened the gut feeling I have that teaching may be a good profession for me. I mean, I have always played ( Read more... )

I'm living with my relatives for the month, working on an internship and taking a summer class simultaneously. It's rough, because I feel like I'm invading on my relatives' space, even though I know that they absolutely do not care. In fact, they won't quit bugging me to just live with them for the whole summer. It's getting a bit annoying, but ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder who obsesses more over my food intake & weight: me or my entire family. At home it's just my mom, but here it's everyone... every aunt, uncle, grandmothers, their friends.

At my relative's house for a month for my internship & summer class. It's already driving me crazy. I'm afraid that I will stay unemployed all summer because technically I can only work for two months before going back to school, and who wants to hire someone just for two months ( Read more... )

Two days at home and I feel like I've gained. :( Too afraid to see what the scale will say. Signed up for a summer gym membership today. I don't want to tell my mom about it, because she will be suspicious.