Well today i took austins mom and chelsey to eat and to go run around. it was real good fun. now austin is gone i feel like i have closure and he will be back, i just have to wait a while. but before i know it he will be here. Life has many turns and some people have had real hard lives, and mine really has been quite awesome, ive never been ( Read more... )

okay time to vent and think and type. So....why do summer loves never leave your mind? well fuck if i know. I met austin this summer and he was my summer boyfriend and now he lives with his dad in dallas. He comes down sometimes and everytime he comes down we chill and things are like they were in the summer. BEAUTIFUL. I wish yall could know the ( Read more... )

well well well...i finally got some pictures of me and my austin...today was alright, i took the psat. went and hung out with angie and haylee for a bit, me and hay hay worked out. ive decided if i am "pregnant" im going to kill my baby with exercise:). one wonderful way to look at it. mm...for some reason i feel real speechless..i miss my friends ( Read more... )

well today was pretty alright........ i went and ate with shawna for her birthday- like a month ago..:)shes beautiful. dude idk why but it just seems like i dont have a life anymore, like all i ever do is...well nothing. stay home sleep and not do homework. so i fail. man idk if i dont pick my grades up i cant get a job, and if i dont get a job, ( Read more... )

hello livejournal. ive missed you- i never get on the computer anymore, i dont know why tho, i dont have a life anyway...?... hmm well lets just update a lil bit- our football team cant seem to win, we've lost all our games, but we did score points on friday:).yay! also the guy i was talking to in the summer austin- im still talking to him even tho ( Read more... )

alright....havent updated in a while. school is so funny. i love raye she just makes me laugh twenty four seven. i felt like a slut today. i feel bad for one of my friends, i want to give her all my money- but i cant. my sister hit me today........i miss austin real bad. i think i say that every post. i miss devino. its her birthday and i didnt ( Read more... )

i miss austin. he might get to come with us to hurricane harbor and six flags. i hope so, i miss him so. i talked to his mommy today. she was worried about me, :) they are gunna build austins room here pretty soon. his mom thanked me for turning him around. i didnt even do anything but just hung with him. i guess thats enough to make a bad boy ( Read more... )

well austin is gone. i miss him alot. he really was something else. i fell for him REAL hard and REAL fast. now im just stuck here depressed. but things will get better it just takes time. Now austin is gone, all the gay boys at browns are makin me mad. this boy ryan, he was telling me that he looked 18 and how he was big and tall. and he goes and ( Read more... )

today i saved two kids..:) one who busted his head on the diving board. and some other kids who wre drowing each other in the deep end:) i feel good. i went to practice, but ive been havin really bad cramps. i swam with austin for a bit today. i feel closer and closer to him everyday.hes a nice boy. ok well thats all i have for tonight ( Read more... )

ah...why do people always screw things up. the things u really want never work because someoen always gets in the way sometimes its yourself. i like austin alot, but if he dosnt stay. then what? i mean what am i gunna do, i cant go back to someone becasue that puts them backseat. ive always liked him, but when it comes down to it..i just dont know ( Read more... )