My life. has fell apart , probably the worst its ever been. Blinkys still in jail he's been in jail since wednsday, Getting hit with statitory rape charges and could face up to 25 years in jail . His court hearing is tomorrow.. , Oso wrecked my car, I lost my job. and i've started cutting again. Boys use me. Friends abandon me. And everyones so ( Read more... )

Suicidal Tendencies - How will i laugh tomorrow ( Read more... )

wow i havent updated in like 4ever lol or so it seems.. I got a job at bob evans as a hostess. Yay! And things with music.. Have been so amazing. Its all so great lol. I never ever would have thought or seen me doing this. But i will tell u the truth. I love it.. I love everything about it.. The writing.. the rapping.. the performing.. Having fans ( Read more... )

TWIZTID WAS SOOO FUCKING AWESOME ( Read more... )

Dear ears ( Read more... )

Both ears completley swollen shut. I cant hear for shit. Both sides really painful and swollen and u can def tell somethings wrong.. Cant lay down certain ways. Cant open my mouth all the way.. My neck wont stop throbbing or feeling like its being sliced around with a hot knife.. i start crying out of nowhere just laying in bed its got that bad. . ( Read more... )

FEB 22ND 2008 ( Read more... )

He did have sex with her. He admitted it to me.. How fucking heartless. i feel so . i dont even know. like dying. and when i asked him how could he do something like that to me. alls he could say was. i dont know. i was really high. i was like wow whatever and he didnt say anything else. so i hung up.

I've noticed that ever since i've gotten in this sad rut . Alls i've done is eat.. and i've never did that b4. i guess since i havent cut in forever thats what happens.. But if u think about it. Thats just as bad.. I dont approve. and that will stop. I really hate what i have become lately.. Suicides been on my mind hardcore for the last 2 days. ( Read more... )

New years at noobits was fun ( Read more... )