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A method to madness?
the other night I wrote some poetry. trying somthing new I actualy planned my decent into a depressive state and out of it within a few hours.
The right mix of "self medication" and the right soundtrack (i am an audioplile) led to an almost fluid writing of this poem.
Waiting 10’
Years ago and ( Read more... ) -
i still got it?
so I can make myself crash into a depression for a few hours write it down and come back to surface unharmed.... i think im on to somthing......... -
it still feels like a fight
bad dreams = depression,but Ive got good things today.... -
plays with fire
so after just going over their furnaces i can say i have allready stolen thier fire technology! oh i wish a had a running shop...
pic is my first blast furnace got it to about 1,300 degrees
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Class starts today =)
now to wait through the safty lectures on machines I allready know how to use.... -
a long wait
being finnaly controlably stable and happy most of time is great, a goal ive been tring to reach for along time. I'm starting a class next week and between that and the gym it will get out of the house everyday. I still have to be here the majority of the time to take care of my grandma ( Read more... ) -
born to lose...
Im in love with a dead girl. there i said it. and i dont care. -
hey wow i remembered I had a live journal!
so I am now mostly hippie, and it is good. very good. My "terrilbe twentys" as i have posted many times before are over and i am finally moveing on with my life haveing conqured my BP and learned haw to harness it to devlope my skills to really persue my dreams, of wich i have many. the finacial axe over my head i have lived with for so long is ( Read more... ) -
headnoism vs. real life
Ive taken up almost all the vices I had stoped due to my health. in 25 yrs they will be able to grow me a new liver right?
anyway living the way I want is worth any years I might save of my life, think of all the fun Id miss :) -
if it wasent for bad luck I wouldent have any luck at all
Another car totaled, back to the city bus..... I've been here before, it's not so bad. I've got a plan now :)