parents came to town last weekend. My dad drank most of the time or we did stuff associated with drinking which took off the edge. I fell hard in real love for the first time since i was 13. It was going awsome, then his ex girlfriend of 7 years popped up all of a sudden saying shes still in love with him. He lent me his keyboard, ive been ( Read more... )

so i guess the past 2 entries are prime examples of how pms really affects my moods. daaayuumn. Besides weird shit b/t kenji and i, i let everything get to me. Im still really stressed though, but im not all crying type bummed. I spent my whole paycheck already. I dont know how it happened,but it did. Fuck. i met these cool girls who work in ( Read more... )

On a lighter note, with all this being really bummed out about shit, i sat next to Moby of all people at the Millenium restraunt across the street from my house while i waited for them to bring me my to go stuff. Its funny. Omigod MOBY!! Wooo! i cant believe it!!!!! yeah... wierd. haha. Oh, and i got asked out on a date today by this guy in the ( Read more... )

I got hired to do freelance makeup for Bobby Brown which is aaaawsome! I start next week, and ill be all $$$$$ and shiz. I love makeup. Freelance is definitely the way to go with it, and Bobby Brown is really pretty and natural looking so i wont have to worry about making 15 year olds look like drag queens. I finally slept in for the first time ( Read more... )

So, as i was saying last entry about things between kenji and i sucking, well last night we broke up. Ive been handling it pretty good, but i just got home from an awsome awsome show, but now im alone and thinking about shit and im going to wake up alone for the first time in a long ass while tomorrow morning. At least i signed on to work more. ( Read more... )

soooo, kenjis going to japan in 2 weeks, and im kinda bummed. I actually went out the other night with mandy and this guy shes dating, and then we came home and my friend thomas came over. I drank like 1/2 glass of organic wine and felt drunk! wtf is wrong with me?? haha. yeah, not really a drinker. I finished all my work for my intermediate ( Read more... )

So.....thinks are very slowly improving. Im still having whole anxious days, but im dealing with them better so that i can still work and stuff. THe med change has helped still. My therapist is helping me deal with a million issues i have but mostly shit from groing up with crazy ass, emotionally abusive russian parents. And i guess daddy ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in a while. Um...so May was probably one of the worst months of my life. My stomache was bleeding, and i developed panic disorder. I crashed my bike and broke my pinky. Went to san diego, but got food poisoning my 2nd day there so i couldnt leave the house the whole time, got kicked out of my school for a semester, and then ( Read more... )

ok! I went to the hospital the other night, because of a horrific pain in my stomache a bit different from any other pain in my stomache. So, heres a list of all the diagnosed problems of my tummy ( Read more... )

yaaaaaay! I did it! I rode my bike around the block without killing myself!!!! (knock on wood). And i practiced stopping and dropping the bike at a 45 angle. Fuck, its still scary, but im getting better. The bike needs new breaks though which is also pretty terrifying. But at least i can ride it down to the bike shop from the bus stop ( Read more... )