My life has gone really whack. Trying to remember the good times with Amanda is...well all I can do. I haven't talked to her since las Tuesday, she hasn't texted me or anything. So I decided to pick up my life. With work and my friend Aylssa, I've been busy. Thursday was my basketball banquet, it was bullshit. Amber won the top award for scoring at ( Read more... )

Man I really miss Jimmy, and I really need him right now. It hurts when you lose someone who is so close to you. And the worst part is, I never wanted to say goodbye so I didn't say goodbye while his body was right infront of my face. So now hes 6 feet underground and the only thing I can do is cry and wish to see him when I do. Its sad, I just ( Read more... )

I've tried to start over, but it failed. My life will never change, it will stay the same. I'll always be hurt, I'll find a way to be accused of cheating, I'll always conceal my true feelings and not let anyone in. I've learned a lot about who I am. I may be gay, but I'm not longer afraid of people knowing that. Trying to move on and leave the past ( Read more... )

Ok so the past few days have been on the crazy side. Sunday night, I got an application for KFC since I was down that way. Well I turned it in on Monday and got a call not even 20 minutes later from Marlene who said that Curtis had given me an excellent recommendation. So my first day is on Tuesday, I work 4-9 and I make $6.75 an hour. This ( Read more... )

Well this week has been a bad week. Amanda's grandmother and my mom decided that they don't want Amanda and me to date anymore. It all started Sunday when her sister Holly picked up the phone and kept saying she needed the phone. So after a while I just blew up and my mom heard me and put me on phone restriction. Then Amanda's grandmother called my ( Read more... )

Yeah yesterday was my 6 month anniversary with Amanda. I messed up on Friday night though. I cheated on her, well technically it wasn't my fault. But I don't have to explain myself to anyone, not even her. Well I feel really guilty. I hurt her, I love her, "I never meant to be so cold". Now our relationship is slowly failing. We don't talk that ( Read more... )

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Christmas Break has been the best this year slash last year. Well it started off by Amber and me becoming close and now we are no longer close. I mean I knew it was coming, I just had no idea when it was going to happen. Well now I'm finally friends with Ashley Jackson again. We've been really close the past 4 days. Erica and Jimmy were having ( Read more... )

Oh my god, I had a great time tonight. I went down Amber's house and hung out with her and Jimmy. Well when I first got there her girlfriend was there but at like 8:50 I took her home and then Jimmy, Amber and me went back to Amber's house. We chilled in her room together and then Jimmy just walked away. So that gave Amber and I some time to talk. ( Read more... )

Life was good but now it has turned sour. Things are really working against me nowadays. I can barely eat, I've lost so much weight. I barely clear 105 and I used to be 118. Basketball is putting me down. I can't practice because I can't eat after I run and I don't feel like throwing up the shit that is sitting in my stomach. Amanda and I aren't ( Read more... )