Allergies suck! It feels like they have schmacked me in the face and they won't go away....coming complete with head BLAH, nose droppings, voice lika man...itchiness. But on the bright side it is Loni's 25th today and we are out at a concert. Before that though, I am going out to dinner with Donna until about 630ish when I will change into concert ( Read more... )

So, I feel like shit today, having been called a bitch by someone I love very much. I am so upset I do not even know how to climb out of this and it is all because I slept in. I sleep when I am sad. I am sad a lot and I really would love to vacate this earth in a heartbeat. People insist on my life, hence the drama in my head. Just let me go.

It has been quite some time since I posted in this bugger....a lot has gone on since then. I guess I didn't do it cuz I try to have no time to myself for reflection, as reflection always leads me to bad things....But, in summation, Shane and I broke up since I last wrote. The painful breaths I have taken since then seem hardly worth it. And before ( Read more... )

OMG. I am so freaking excited about going to Europe. This is my first crazy trip and all I am worried about is public bathrooms.....man I am a head case. There are bombs and snipers there that are ordered to kill if anyone looks funny and here I am with lesser worries......geez. Oh well, at least ONE THING in my life is going well. I love my ( Read more... )

Ok, so I am in a strange mood in light of my relationship and both of my brother's relationships. My question is when does it all go bad? Not why or where or how but when. Like at what point do people start taking others for granted; what point is respect an issue; at what point do you start hurting the other person so bad that neither of you ( Read more... )

Mk.....so I wasn't on the schedule and now I am for like 3 days that I was not supposed to be. Ok for the money aspect but all my free time can just bite my ass I guess. The weather is shit on the weekends so how the hell am I supposed to jump out of a plane in the clouds etc! GEEZ! SHort and not so sweet but hey...it is MY BITHCY page.

My bestest little bug in the whole world will see that and know the line. I am gym bound, starting a strict regiment of toning, cardio and all sorts of other shit. This entry is not half as eloquent as my last ones, but maybe that is a good thing from some people's perspective. I am being worked to the bones. Yai death. And skydiving is soon too ( Read more... )

I don't know how I feel about today. I think I have managed to live on though. *Looks around* Yes, there is still things around me. I am quite perturbed at people lately though. I mean, work is forever wonky but a certain dude I work with seems disgruntled about the job. Well, quit. But he is making my life a small hell to be in cuz finding ways ( Read more... )

Once again I am being consumed by the morose feelings of inadequacy. I mean, I will never be ok no matter how hard I try and if my love is not enough now, who is to say it will grow and be better for the next person. The shit must not exist in a pure form. I mean, at least the way I think it should. I think it should be unconditional and no matter ( Read more... )