so i think its just time for my life to end... if i died right now i dont think anyone would even notice i was gone...

so today i was sitting here thinking why do i even bother to update my lj... i mean i dont really think anyone reads it. i only have 3 people on my friends list and one of them is my cuz, so she doesnt count. i guess it just kinda helps to be able to let my thoughts and feelings out a little, so i guess thats why i do it. i mean none of the few ( Read more... )

so i'd forgotten how much i loved new orleans... being back there was totally amazing. it was almost like i had never left, except i didnt have my house anymore. :( i miss that house so much. on friday, me and dani decided to go back to my old house to see it. the people that lived there were up on the balcony so i told them i used to live ( Read more... )

not much to say, really. nikki's moving back in tomorrow... great. also, i am leaving tomorrow... wish forever, but i'm not that lucky. but i am excited cause im takin a trip to new orleans to visit my friends from i lived there. its kinda weird cause i havent been there for like 5 years... wow. but ive kept in touch with most people from ( Read more... )

so i'm having a really, really hard time dealing with things lately. i'm at the point where i really just don't care anymore. about anything. i can't deal with all the obstacles and shit that keeps gettin thrown at me. i mean how much more can one person take? and then on top of MY life issues, other people that im close to are seriously havin ( Read more... )

so today i learned a little lesson about trust. and that lesson was that i can't trust ANYONE... right now, i seriously can not think of a single person in my life that i can honestly trust about anything. my parents dont give a shit and i learned today that my friends dont give a shit either. no one cares about me and my feelings about ( Read more... )

not really much to say... i've been sick which is why i havent updated in awhile. friday was my friend's b'day, which was fun. went out friday night and heard this band. they were pretty good. so many people came out for her b'day, and her "man" too. too bad she made a fool outta herself cause she was so wasted. oh well. i had a decent time ( Read more... )

um, so i dont really have much to say except life sucks right now. went to my interview in NYC on friday, which went pretty well. but of course my parents were only NEGATIVE about the whole thing. i thought this was what they wanted me to do, but i guess not. my mom is convinced she's gonna waste more money or whatever and that im just gonna ( Read more... )

yeah so i don't know how i forgot about this... so last week my dad called me (big shocker) and asked me if i wanted to go out to dinner tonight. i said yes and we agreed on where to meet. so today im at te restaurant, waiting, waiting... so finally after 30 mins goes by i call. what do u know, he forgot... i was like thanks alot dad... glad to ( Read more... )

today was one of those days where i ended up with a lot of time to myself where i could actually just sit and think about things. ha, so mainly it was a whole day that i could sit and think about how shitty my life is and how unhappy and alone i feel right now. my family life sucks, i dont really have any friends, i have no one to love or who ( Read more... )