yeah... so i might be moving... again. it's like everytime i feel like i'm getting used to bein somewhere, we move again. it was bad enough the last move took place while i was away and they didnt even tell me until like 2 days before they moved. what the hell? thanks mom. but anyway, at least i got a lil notice this time... although its still ( Read more... )

ugh, i woke up this morning and didnt wanna get out of bed. but then i remembered that it was friday and im goin out with hottie jeff tonight. yay! i can't wait ( Read more... )

sometimes i just wanna run away... life seriously sucks right now. i just wish something would make me happy. maybe i'll go to sleep and not wake up tomorrow, or ever... that would be nice right about now. im fed up with my life...

ugh, i'm sooooooo tired and its still early in the day. so last night i had to babysit for this family cause my friend couldnt do it. so when i pulled up to the house and got out, im walkin up the driveway and i hear someone call my name. hottie lives right next door to these people!!!! so he was like how late do u have to babysit. i told him ( Read more... )

was about the most fun night i have had in a REALLY long time. so yesterday i got up the nerve to ask hottie was he was sat night (ie tonight). he said nothin, so i said ok u are comin out with me and my girls!!!! (so unlike me) but he came and we had an amazing time, except i am now kinda waseted and hope i didnt make too much of an ass of ( Read more... )

so tonight was one of the best nights i've had in a really long time. was out with some people and ran into mr. hottie, who i hadnt seen forever. we started talking, and talking, and talking. wow, he's so great, but i still can't tell how he feels about me... um, but at least we actually talked for more than 2 mins tonight. but anyway... he ( Read more... )

i don't know what would even make me think that anyone cares... after all this time i should have realized that no one really gives a shit about me at all and that i am totally alone in this world. how stupid do i have to look right now to have not realized this sooner. no one has ever really done anything at all to try and help me, to support me ( Read more... )

too bad... i woke up this morning. just great... and today, another totally shitty day. well at least its not my issues i had to deal with today. went out with melissa and amy to dinner tonight and they just arent getting along. find out that amy has been talkin shit about mel to other people and sayin how she cant stand her. so of course they ( Read more... )

i can't believe after all these years i still let this shit get to me. was at the mall today and ran into my dad... he was with my step sisters. they came over and said hi and were really sweet, but my dad pretended that he didnt even know me. what the fuck is up with that???? i know i shouldnt let it get to me anymore, but it still hurts when ( Read more... )

today, not a good day. since i basically had the day to sit and think about how bad things are right now. why is it that everything seems to go wrong at the same time???? so all day i was just miserable... tried to go to the mall and shop away my blues, but that didnt really make me feel much better, which kinda surprised me, seeing as how much ( Read more... )