i'm not sure why i'm even on here anymore. i never write anything. i think it's been almost a year since i last posted.

life is just life. it just is.

...this idea is from Carlie [info]treestarz ( Read more... )

i'm so tired of the bullshit. i feel like i'm swimming in it. and it stinks. and i'm not a very good swimmer. i hate people who cause unnecessary problems.

when do things get easier? when i'm DEAD????

we had a really good xmas break. went to the lake and stayed with my family for a few days. got lots of nice gifts...like a 26 inch HDTV!! then spent a couple days catching up with friends in cleveland. going home is always bittersweet for me now. i love my family and my friends and the flat, delta land. i get really sad when i have to leave it all ( Read more... )

been sick lately which means i've been having wild dreams again. my dreams always go crazy when i'm sick. this time i dreamed about a car wreck in which four teenage girls died. the girl in the driver's seat was the worst looking one with her jaw broken and split from her head. blood oozed out the sides of her now gigantic mouth. the two girls in ( Read more... )

so i don't think i ever mentioned that i'm taking meds now for my anxiety problems. i can tell a difference in my daily life. i don't have as many panic attacks, and i'm not crying over everything anymore. on the down side, i feel like a zombie most of the time. like i don't have feelings anymore. i just exist. i don't get super happy or super sad ( Read more... )

treestarz has tagged me to ( Read more... )

i'm just scared all the time. i had a dream that a crazy killer man was chasing me and tony all around this crowded mall and parking lot. and we were just trying to hide in a sea of faces so he couldn't find us. i kept saying we have to run! we have to make a break for it. but every time i wanted to run, there weren't any people to hide us and we ( Read more... )

i'm sick so i stayed home today. there must be some weird kind of virus going around that causes people to get migraines because i've had one for 3 days now, and my aunt said she did too. i just feel like shit today. i couldn't focus on anything yesterday. i hope it goes away soon. i feel it in my teeth ( Read more... )

so i finally figured out "what i am ( Read more... )