I feel retarded......there are so many great things going on in life right now and i just can't seem to get in a good mood...i don't know why....i think i have this warped sense of reality that everyone else's lifes are perfect and i'm the only one thats got problems....and i know thats not true, but i can't help feeling that way.....it's like the ( Read more... )

I feel so sick, so consumed, so uneasy.....i feel like i have the flu, but i don't. i feel like i want to throw up, throw up all this bullshit i've been feeling lately. so theres this friend of mine. who hasn't reall felt liek a friend lately, more like a distant memory of the girls i knew in high school, she has become a friend with a boyfriend. ( Read more... )

something happened the other night. something i wasn't expecting. somthing wonderful. a forgotten feeling was revived. and not in the way you think. the week we first met, i cried. i cried tears of joy for the first time. and though i did not cry the other night, i felt that joy. i'm still feeling a little tingly right now actually. why is it that ( Read more... )

I won't open my mouth to sing, unless you ask it ( Read more... )

Why is that saying true, don't they come to an end because they are no longer good? Well i don't think i'm so sure about the answer to that, but i do know that if somthing is good, you should try to hold on to it. And if it isn't, you shouldn't be afraid to let go. So thats it. Me and Shawn are over. It was nice while it lasted, but i think we just ( Read more... )

I really don't know how I'm feeling right now. Confused, maybe a bit uncertain. As I move on with life i see things change and grow, and i change and grow with it. But in the end is it all worth it. Is what we sacrifice worth it. Should we even really give that part of ourselves and that part of our dreams up just because there might not really be ( Read more... )

since i've written ne thing, not like people read this ne ways, i just feel the need to catch my self up on events of the past semester ( Read more... )

Too often i feel things with my mind and not my heart. I say things I do not feel and feel imaginary emotions. Perhaps my body is just trying to find a balance. I cannot love till I feel love beating in my heart, just as I cannot cry without a tear drop forming in my eye. Time is not right yet, nor the mind nor the heart. So i shall wait, till ( Read more... )

My bumble bee knows how to see far beyond the oceans ( Read more... )

Wow it's really been a while since i actually sat down to do one of these. well to catch up on things. I just finished a fabulous run of Christopher Durang plays. I was in The nature and purpose of the universe. things ended much more different then i expected, but in a good way. i never knew i could push myself so far with somthing.And i had a ( Read more... )