It's nice i guess to finally live in a place where you can feel the seasons changing, not just see them. And as i walk about campus i notice more and more people getting close and closer together, to bring warmth to the season, and yet i can't reciprocate the feeling. My heart is in a dormant slumber, waiting to be awakened, but knowing that the ( Read more... )

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theres no way i can even express how i feel right now. you ever feel like people just see right through you, like you don't exist, like you outside your body watching people ignore you. i feel consumed by something horrible inside me i'm trapped in this river of sadness, like where all the lost souls go in corney death movies, but theres nothing ( Read more... )

Ok i'm so sick of half the crap thats on t.v.now a days...now i know why i don't have cable in Tally....it's not worth it to watch t.v. ne more......i was watching the show "Rich Girls"....and one of the girls was like ....oh i'm just not feeling positive energy right now...i think i just need to fly out to Seattle and buy a pair of $400 shoes ( Read more... )

It's funny how we can hold somethings so tenderly to our hearts for what seems like forever and then set it free, and disconnect ourselves from it completely... i want so much to hold on to the things dearest to me, and yet i can't...they flutter away like a passing breeze, warm and gentle. I feel certain things slipping away from me..even as we ( Read more... )

I look at life thru rose colored glasses, and i almost always consider my self an optimist, on most things, except when i'm awaiting an answer or results for somthing i always think the worst is going to happen, pretty pesimistic. But theres a method to my madness, if i go about things like this i'm prepairing myself for the worst, so when the ( Read more... )

Its happening again....i'm losing control of my heart and theres nothing i can do about it...i wish life were simpler...i wish i could just look him in the face and say "open your eyes....what you've been looking for is right in front of you...ready and willing to become a part of your life" but i'm too afraid to say these words to him...and if i ( Read more... )

My heart is a very indecisive organ...sometimes i wonder why it just doesn't decide to cease its pumping. I don't like or love easily...it takes a great individual to posses what i look for in man. And yet sometimes my heat surprises me with whom it choses to take a liking in. The sir of the moment isn't the type i'm usually interested in, or maybe ( Read more... )

Today was one of those days. No matter how on your toes you seem to be, you always end up stumbling. I'm really good at not letting the little things in life bother me, but a problem comes along when all those little things build up to create a GIANT, SCARY, BIG-THING PROBLEM!!! and then i just can't deal...so i cry ..and cry...and yet theres ( Read more... )

Where do i begin. i feel i want to talk about everything and nothing all at once. Not about my life, but the lives of others. Both the past and present is dancing through my mind right now filling me with heavenly warmth like a mother caressing her sleeping babies face. "I wanna be drunk, i wanna be high, i wanna be drunk, i wanna be high..on you ( Read more... )