Lindsey Fera brought up something scared the SHIT out of me last night ( Read more... )

A couple of days ago I had a complete relapse. I got so caught up in how many people hated me that I couldn't take it anymore. I called Jimmy hysterically crying and imed nate.

I never thought I'd be this damn crazy. Ever.

What's happened to my life? When did I become like this? I wish I'd never gone to Westminster.

I still don't understand why I was ( Read more... )

They say the hardest part of the theatre is separating yourself. Trying to maintain you and the stage all at once. It’s a deceptively elaborate task. Often, you become so immersed in the you on stage that you completely lose you. This, unfortunately, is the tragically epiphanous turn that my continuance on this earth has come to. I’ve played every ( Read more... )

These past few weeks have taught me a few lessons ( Read more... )

Nate and I broke up.

I never want to fall in love again.

I'm so tired of people telling me they love me and not meaning it.

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God and music, the two things that never let me down.

I'm so sick of this fucking mediocrity ( Read more... )

 A family friend of the Crosley's died a few days ago. They had the funeral last night. And as messed up as everything is between their family and myself, it still broke my heart to think of their loss . It was a friend of their grandmothers, and I got to know their grandmother really well this summer ( Read more... )

Things are going a lot better lately ( Read more... )

I've come to the conclusion that my battle with depression is one that I'll be struggling for quite some time. It's just something I have to accept, it's baby steps. I keep praying to God for guidance, because there are so many parts in my life that need him. I know he loves me, but sometimes I feel so lonely. I hope he shows me the way soon ( Read more... )

I 'm reaching.
Pulling.
Stretching all of my being.
How long until I can stretch no longer?