So, my god. I thought I was really going to go blind/commit suicide this week, like the weak, pathetic bastard that I am, but, yeah, still alive and all that. Between the deadliness and the flu, this has pretty much just been another week ( Read more... )

( I am angry for no ostensible reason. Fuck, I love the word ostensible. I want to have its children. )

HEY GAIZ, IT LOOKS LIKE I GET TO GO TO UNIVERSITY AFTER ALL.


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My subconscious, it's fucking me over. It's as though it's trying to tell me that I need to load up on some meds before I sleep, because otherwise, it tries to fuck you 20 ways to Sunday, like a motherfucker. Ugh. In one of my recent dreams, I think good ol' Subby is trying to tell me to become a Scientologist-- I shit you not; I even saw Xenu and ( Read more... )

If I come off as teribly snippy for the next few days, I blame the fact that I am unable to handle rejection well, especially when it pertains to things related to my motherfucking future. It's times like these that I wish I could keep my cool much better, but well, at this current point in time, a lot of things seem rather impossible to accomplish ( Read more... )

In recent days, I've come to realise: that I'm way too tired for someone of my age; that I am a terribly bitter individual; that certain individuals and their needs should just go and take a flying leap off the face of Mt. I-Just-Don't-Give-A-Fuck; that everything is bullshit and I should just get out while I still can.

:C

I haven't had much sleep for the past few days, not that you can blame me, really: my joints are prone to aching like you wouldn't believe, especially around this time of month; and to make matters worse, I've had some of the most fucked up dreams to date, one of which included bleeding out from my ear. God fucking damn it ( Read more... )

To my beloved family ( Read more... )

I don't get into Internet fights often, largely because, I don't tend to be really confrontational by nature; critical of stupidity, yes, but I don't intentionally pick fights just for the hell of it. And I got into one. Perhaps, it's because I'm in withdrawal from my painkillers and other such shit, but seriously the journal posted in response to ( Read more... )

I need to figure out exactly what I want to do with my life.

That is all.

:<

Fuck.