hrms... so 'm sittin here... and i was thinkin.. (scary i know ;) haha0 but i was.. and i realized that i dont' want one-nite stands.. i don't want friends with benefits.. i want something real. i want someone i connect with... someone i can be goofy w/ and just have a good time with.. its ironic that when i came out here, thats exactly what i DIDN ( Read more... )

ok so yeah things are awesome here :-D so excited.. classes start on monday, can't wait... met some really awesome people (and some really hot guys ;) ) so thats kick ass... this one dude though is gettin a lil big obnoxious.. its like he's cool 'n all 'n we click but he wants to try something more, and i REALLY don't want to right now.. i want to ( Read more... )

dude... ok so parents left met today. no roomie yet. aggie week kinda a blower. all is well ( Read more... )

see yall in a week!!!!! 'm off to NMSU!! won't have internet access till Tuesday!! ya'll behave while 'm gone ;) much love to ya'll!!!

HI CHUCK!!!! lol there you go

so 'm down to two days till i leave :-/ big bummer.. i'm the first out of all i know to leave. and it sucks. atleast though 'm not the last and have to watch everyone else leave. it just stinks that i have to say good bye.. tomorrow i'll get to see everyone that i love or have meant something to me while i've been here. and it'll mean alot to see ( Read more... )

for the first time i think in a long time i've been at a loss for words... i honestly don't know what to say... i had it out, said what i needed to say and i'm worse off than i began ( Read more... )

so i talked to sean yesterday about friends..... nothing's really changed from my last entry; i've just come to the conclusion that i'm not going to bother calling people anymore.. why? because they don't bother calling me.. the few times ido call them i get blown off so i'm just not going to try anymore.. like this whole clubbing thing, ( Read more... )

let me just say that some friends can be assholes. they're your friend but only to a certain point thus making them assholes. i knew once i moved uphere in springfield that things would change- didn't realize it was going to be like this though. let me also just say that it down right sucks that i always have to go down there to see people. i'm ( Read more... )

OK so i'm more or less 4 weeks out before i leave for NM. all good 'n gravy. joy. Part of me wants to go, part of me wants to just say fuck it, and stay. but it seems to me that even more so now the things that are pulling me in both directions are amplified. i want to stay even more for the family i've made here, its almost crippling to know that ( Read more... )