After a lot lot LOT of talking, the bf and I are doing much better now. He knows I'm not in that place where I'm ready to settle down, and he is. So we compromised. We're looking for a place together, to kind of trial run things. Hoping to move in together by May. Neither of us can really afford it but I think our relationship needs it. I'm really ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Been trying to deal with my bf. See... shit. Well. I think Valentine's Day might tear more people apart than it brings together. My bf sort of proposed to me on Val day. He didn't have a ring yet but he got down on one knee, said all the words, and I just kind of froze up ( Read more... )

I'm at the point in my life where I'm not sure who to be or what to be when I grow up. I always thought I would just keep on with gymnastics or dancing, but my injury a few years ago kinda killed that idea. I guess I kept hoping with hard work I could overcome that, but my body has never been able to be that graceful since then. So now what? I dont ( Read more... )

It's freaking FREEZING out there! I have to remember to be inside by like, 5oclock every day til warm weather is back. Cause when the sun goes down I am NOT a happy girl. Screw this shizz, I need to move to Texas or something. Okay not Texas. But someplace not so dang cold.

ack I totally fail at this posting thing. I was always bad at keeping a diary. So what to say, what to say... My boyfriend keeps trying to get me to quit smoking- it won't work. I've been smoking for years now. It's more than the addiction- I love the heat near my fingers, breathing in the drugs, exhaling an almost perfect ring of smoke. Smoking is ( Read more... )