Do you ever just look at things from the past and look at life now and wonder how you got to where you are? Or how you've changed from where you've come? I have a sorta collage of pictures in my room of me and Chris....some have Sheryl in them, but I don't mind it. As I was home alone today, I looked at them. And saw how much we've changed. There ( Read more... )

I am fuh-reaking out. I was so anxious to go home. So happy and elated to give birth and then so overwhelmed. Since he came early, I was in a hurry to get home and get situated. And then I get this call from school about being kicked out of the Phlebotomy program that I need to take care of thats not even my fault! And so if its not fixed, its ( Read more... )

We had our baby shower on Saturday the 12th and we got a lot of things we wanted...including 2 carseats which I've been playing with and wonder if those were my best choices...I think we're exchanging one of them for a more expensive one...one that looks more comfortable. Mike also supposedly said that he and Karen had broken up...she wasn't at the ( Read more... )

Why do people automatically assume they're your friend when you're pregnant? Then they voluntarily invite themselves to your baby shower...or at least say "oh you better invite me" or "lemme know when it is ( Read more... )

look, but don't touch. Today I was touched in the belly almost twice. First was a lady who said oh how are you? And I said fine, and as I was passing, she said how is the baby and touched my belly then i said fine and walked away. WTF. I don't go touching you when I ask how you're doing. And if i ask how you're doing its because I always do, not ( Read more... )

I think I'm getting so many anxieties and am so scared at this point in my life because this is the first time I can't plan out and control everything. Now, the baby will be controlling me. He will be dictating my entire schedule and although I have plans, they might have to change. I don't know how things will be with school. I don't know how day ( Read more... )

I've come to realize...that you can't trust anyone. EVER. I mean its something that we all know. Its something that we tell ourselves over and over again. Because each time we get hurt, thats what we say to reassure ourselves. I've come to find out that even the ones we love the most cannot always be trusted. Its just up to yourself whether or not ( Read more... )

so annilyn who is karen's cousin added cat to her myspace and on some of her pix, there is us in the wedding and it says on the caption "hey, gem remember this night...hahaha...." what does that mean? annilyn came with gemma who is chris' cousin and they both wore jeans to my wedding reception. needless to say i didn't like that. i don't know how ( Read more... )

Today I feel better. I actually called Karen's house and left a message calling to "check up on her" and hoping she was "feeling better." That was it. Even though when I think about it I am also upset at her for bringing up something like she did up. Thinking I was saying what I did the way she thought I said it, yelling at me before she knew the ( Read more... )

I have a great husband, wonderful parents, and a dog named Mushu that love me. I have everything in life that I need, but why do I feel like this ( Read more... )