my mother is driving me nucking futs...she comes in and starts telling us stories while were watching our shows on HBO Now, which we only have the free trial.  i'm going crazy.  i seriously wonder if she poisoned Logan somehow.  he was fine, chasing Bluefire around the day before and then he got sick suddenly.  he started peeing on the floor and ( Read more... )

well, austin lost his job at the beginning of february.  no surprise there.  we had several major things that needed to be done at the house that we couldn't afford.  the electricity got cut off.  we still had water.  we stayed at the house for a few days.  it got really hot and i could not sleep at night.  we went to our friend, Rebecca's, house ( Read more... )

not much going on at the moment...i dropped out of school.  the stress got to me and i burned out.  i am trying to find a job.  i will take anything right now.  austin finally got a job with winn-dixie working full time in the meat department.  it doesn't pay a whole lot but it's better than nothing.  he is going back to school.  austin and i are ( Read more... )

i started school on march 31st, i am studying medical office assistant.  i am tired of being, broke and on disability.  i want to do something with my life and make my sons proud of me.  there are certain things that i want out of life and i know they are not going to be handed to me, i am going to have to work for them.  the program is seven and a ( Read more... )

i had quite an experience tonight.  austin and i were coming home from walmart this evening.  we always take the back road that goes through the stennis buffer zone.  there are no houses there.  just trees and a gravel pit.  when we were passing the VFW hall before entering the buffer zone i started getting sick at my stomach and then my field of ( Read more... )

this man contacted me a few months ago for a tarot reading and guidance and i have been helping him since then.  a little info on his situation.  he is 49 and gay.  he fell in love with a much younger Ukrainian man who is not gay and they became friends.  he lived with this man and helped him get a job and get US citizenship.  when the Ukrainian ( Read more... )

Saturday Austin filled out an application for a call center job.  He would be answering calls about the company's health care.  Well Sunday the hiring firm for that company called and interviewed Austin over the phone and gave him the job.  He goes Tuesday to do his drug test and fill out his paperwork.  He starts working on the 23rd.  This is a ( Read more... )

austin and i were playing skip-bo yesterday  he and i noticed that i had an abundance of the number 6.  yesterday i had 8 of them.  we got to talking about that something is telling me that i need to do a reading with the number 6.  i did a tarot reading where i shuffled the cards 6 times.  the basic gist of the reading was that austin and i need ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do here lately.  my marriage is falling apart.  austin is unemployed, AGAIN.  he has been on medical leave since june.  he puts in job applications occasionally.  i don't make enough on my SSI and Disability to support us so I do a juggling act as to who gets paid each month and it's beginning to take a toll on me mentally and ( Read more... )

I called and talked to Phoenix this evening.  I asked if he is ready to start school on the 26th.  He said yes.  He will be in the 2nd grade.  He asked me if I would talk to his dad about his babysitter, amber.  He said she yells at him and has hit him.  I got pissed.  I told him yes.  I would talk to his dad.  Child protective services has already ( Read more... )