I decided I was done thinking about this, but I still think about it every day, so clearly my plan is not working ( Read more... )

No, I'm not trying to hurt you. I've never tried to hurt you in any way, or been mean to you.

I see no point in some dramatic digital bridge burning.

I hate that I *have to* think about you getting married. I'll never get satisfactory answers, it doesn't make me feel good... My thinking about it is pointless and a ridiculous waste of my time.

That's upsetting, that you're throwing pieces of me away. I understand why you have to do it, it just makes me feel like garbage. I get that it's not malicious, unless you're actually burning all the stuff I gave to you, but that doesn't change the fact that it's me you're throwing away. It makes me wonder what you kept, and how you decided what ( Read more... )

I don't get it. I understand that I don't make particularly well considered choices in regards to women, but I thought I had that under control. I thought that as long as I was up front and clear, saying that I'm not interested in anyone, that would make my intentions clear enough ( Read more... )

I had a dream I gave a German suplex to some guy named Nick ( Read more... )

So, I've been trying to learn how to write sex scenes, because they're really hard. While this venture has only produced one full draft of a story, I do have a couple other homeless bits that I thought I'd share. They're based on fact, but, of course, fictionalized.

( I said it and I was a fool )

The hell? I still have a life journal? I thought I traded in for a couple blogspot things that I don't write in. oh well ( Read more... )

If I were a month I would be: July ( Read more... )

As expected, Petra did not call. I might hear from her 'round New Years, as that was sort of our holiday together, but, then again, maybe I won't. She might have some new guy to distract her, or something. With finals coming up, I don't have the time to figure out exactly what I'm looking to gain from her. She has a shirt of mine that I miss, but I ( Read more... )

Courtney and I made it official last weekend at the lock in. So, I have a girlfriend again. And, of course, after trying for so long to push every little piece of your soul that might be interested in women into a little box to be hidden away somewhere, there's some spillage when you open it again ( Read more... )