I've been thinking about the alcohol problem again. It's been dormant for a while, basically since I abandoned my love for Petra. I thought it had gone entirely, because I thought I'd isolated the necessary conditions for my own self destruction. That is, it's not that it bothers me that people drink, it only when there is an element of love. Only ( Read more... )

I have two very big papers due tomorrow, in addition to all my other work. I have one dollar in my wallet, which has to buy me enough food to last until December. I can work more hours ot get more money, but I cannot afford to sacrafice the study time. I cannot have money and an education at the same time, it seems. Additionally, there was another ( Read more... )

Ah, there it is. I haven't felt that in a while... it's life-affirming to have your heart beat that loud.

When I talk about Morgan, and Brandon, and Tree, and MetalKyle, and Troy, and Travis, and Kiki, and Jeff, and other Morgan, and so on.... I sound like I'm making it up. It doesn't make sense that all these people (which don't make sense within this plane of existence themselves) congregated in the same place at the same time. As far as I can tell, ( Read more... )

I maintain that I am perhaps the luckiest son of a cracker-ass that has ever lived, despite some peoples remarks to the contrary. No matter what misfortunes befall me, they are compensated by great providence. Well, most of my hardships come from two sources- money and car. Often, they go together, though, so it's hard to separate them. Right now, ( Read more... )

If you've read my journal, both this one and the thick binders which I consult from time to time to uncluttered my mind, and guide me in my cerebral endeavors, you may notice that I talk about girls, love, and the pursuit of both a lot ( Read more... )

People have expressed some confusion by my last entry, so I will share the whole story before I go to Religion and fail another midterm ( Read more... )

Student code of conduct at UMF: celebrate valentine's day and the snow by dressing up as Zorro and hugging friends = get kicked off campus.

I have to set up a hearing next week.

Things are strange. After some persuasive words from friends, my brother and Kerri in particular, I tried to break up with Rosie, but it didn't really work. I said I'd sleep on it. The next day, we broke up ( Read more... )

I was hoping for some guidence from all you mysterious faces of the internet, but it didn't work out that way. It's too late now. I've gone and started all over again ( Read more... )