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[softer]

Things between Andy and I are turning bitter. I trust him very little now, and I realize that I have never really trusted him very much; I am constantly waiting for that big hurt, for that hurt to end them all, the one that will finish me. It does not come of its own volition so I make up little ones along the way. I suppose that these hurts

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[seanshatto]

I add: things slow down and speed up and we all know it. But then it slows down beyond what once seemed like the breaking point, and now a person has to deal with that. I don't know if it's an accurate speed-tension-analogy, but the point is... the point is, I wish you well whatever your direction. your bubbling voice on my answering machine.

[frozenchrysalis]

You belong to yourself, and everything else in this world. And it all belongs to you.

[8hg9taaad5e5]

in life such terrible beauty.
hugs, you belong to yourself.

[bonny]

it happens to the best of us

[softer]

buck up, champ. i know.

[bonny]

i never thought it would happen to me. to ever fall so madly in love. but poof, there it was. and oof, how it has left me bruised and wounded. he was my first and i still believe; the only one. my first real love, my first real life. i don't exactly know when it happened, when it all started to fade, or what caused it, or who is the one to blame. yesterday i was all tears again, crying and kicking and screaming and feeling violent and helpless and so in need of (his) love as it seems to be the only cure, but i know it's not. he will only make me suffer more. i wrote him i would never forgive him. i wrote him so many things. i still have the letter here, among a hundred others. i'm glad i didn't give it to him today, he finally dared to look me in the eyes again and there were a few sparks, a few tiny little miracles that told me it is not over yet.
i don't know if i should be thankful, or feel doomed.

[ether_real]

you're... an amazing slice-of-life,
I can almost breathe this in.