I am thinking about my friend a lot. It is almost becoming a cliche, since I feel like I think about him constantly, and he only occasionally crossed my mind while he was alive.
"While he was alive." The strangeness of that phrase looms large and pushes away the reality of what happened:
-Tyler was driving
-Car went off the road (why, why, why)
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I wish I were as beautiful as her. Instead of being as beautiful as her with a swollen face from dental surgery. I wish I were as accomplished as them. As consistent as her. As dedicated as him. As reliable ( Read more... )

Frozen. Warm me up, love.

Yes, yes, yes, I am loud and unfiltered and yes my stuff is all over the hallway and yes I do want to share all my favorite things and you can wait until I have told you all of my favorite quotes and yes and am often late and yes I complain about packing!

SO? HAH!

This is pointless. I am pointless.

Get over it.

Whatever. Everything is my fault. There. No excuses. Done. I won't talk about my life until I fix it, because nobody wants to hear about bad decisions that keep getting made. My life is roses and sunshine to everybody but those whose job it is to work with me on becoming responsible.

Sorry, I won't be celebrating. There is too much wrapped up in it all. Go you, but fuck everything else. It is just another reason I can't wait until next year. Until I leave all of the people who won't know why they shouldn't be so very fond of that asshole ( Read more... )

I very frequently wish to scream. But I'm learning how to live without my head buried in the sand and face all of those painfully slow moments of awareness. Gradually.

Wow. Last night was horrific. It got much better, but it was a disaster.

I always loved finding and digging through old journals. People let go of filters when they write, and there is so much to discover. More honesty than you could ever hope to find, save for those rare late nights after a small amount of liquor. Or perhaps an evening of watching old movies, or running out into a torrential downpour, laughing at the ( Read more... )