This was a day all about extremes. It started off innocent enough. My first day back at Columbia. It was like I'd never left. This is home. It's where I belong. I love this part of the city. I love the people I'm surrounded by. Math was my only class today. Sitting next to me? A music major who plays bass and loves NIN, Green Day, and HIM. Behind ( Read more... )

Happy Valentine's bitches. How's everyone spending the day?

I've figured out a way to work through what's left of this mess. I've been searching for a new project to pour myself into. The acting is exciting, putting a band together is fun some days and extremely boring others, and all the other distractions are just that... distractions. I always come home to what's bothering me: fear, insecurity, regret. I ( Read more... )

New Batman Begins Trailer

I got so excited when I saw this I almost cried. "Does it come in black?" HA! June 17th has formally been marked on my calendar. It has been way too long. Nothing brings out the geek in me like Batman.

There are numerous reasons that this should have been a bad day. Lots of people trying to bring me down. Lots of situations reminding me I'm far from being settled. But something has changed. I've been doing a lot better for the last two weeks I think. I've noticed a huge change in my attitude and my outlook. Although the shadows still find me, ( Read more... )

Um... weird. I'm sitting here trying to figure out if the last ten minutes actually happened. There's a bit of a backstory here that I don't feel like getting into right now. It started two weeks ago when Liz and I went to a bar across the street. It continued Thursday night. Both are long stories. Both nights had me wondering if something strange ( Read more... )

Hmmm... I don't know where to begin. So I guess I'll just be blunt. I was shot. I'm fine. Long story. Don't really want to write about it. I'll talk to anyone who's curious I just don't feel like typing out the whole chain of events right now. But everything's okay. I'm okay. I'm looking at things through a brand new set of eyes ( Read more... )

In one hour I'll be 23. Happy Birthday to me.


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Laugh all you want, but this Madonna song is making me feel a lot better right now. Actually, this whole album is pretty good. So there. But seriously, the lyrics to this song are exactly where I'm at right now. I'm not even crying. I feel empowered. I'm not through this yet. Not even close. But I will be so much stronger when I am. Now all I have ( Read more... )