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In case you didn't get that my username is ( Read more... )

I hate how I feel like it's so easy to let go. After everything that has happened, I can just let go? I increasingly think that I must be kidding myself. I think that it's more (metaphorically) "losing grip".

I could be wrong, I'm not exactly sure, the world may never know, but I think I'm not in love ( Read more... )

I am only now realizing the gravity of my actions. I am only now thinking that something should come of it. I deserve to be punished, he deserves much more, and I need to somehow be honest with myself. I really have no idea what to do. Anything I want to do really isn't fair to anyone. I can't go on ignoring all this shit, I need to somehow get it ( Read more... )

This weekend has been... emotionally and physically hectic. Too much thinking, none of which I am doing. I need to vent, but anyone to whom I can feasibly vent now will only judge me. It's crazy. There has just been entirely too much that has happened, and I need to get it out because I can't tell it to one certain person... oh dear ( Read more... )

There appear to be chicks who are obsessed with him or something. But hey, I still have my minor attachments [see previous post]. I can't really say as I have any guys who want me, like these chicks want him and are concerned about him. But oh well.
He loves me. (Right?)
And I'm going to get the fuck over some hater- lameass-obsessive-creeper high ( Read more... )

Cleaned my closet today. Found a huge amount of old pictures. Some funny, some were fun memories. Some were hard to look at in a way, because I parted on not so amicable terms with some people. It's sad that someone who was such a big part of my life, and was in so many of my pictures, refuses to speak to me. Oh well. There is nothing I can do- I ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I just wish I could be happier. I wish I could control it. I wish I could be happy, period ( Read more... )

This weekend has been a bit of a rollercoaster. I go from consciously cheating on my boyfriend and being okay with it, to being rejected completely, to feeling angry, to a whole jumble of feelings... and then the kicker: he tells me that we wants to marry me [someday]. I wasn't sure how to feel. How can he be sure? He recognizes my mood changes, ( Read more... )

So. There's a particular boy. We're good friends and get along quite well. He has had a crush on me for a long time- basically ever since he met me. He's has a girlfriend for a few months now, who is a girl he dated for 2 years in high school. Of course, I also have a boyfriend... but on to business. He just don't seem willing to give up his crush ( Read more... )