it's been a long time- i don't even remember what that last entry was about- anne is getting married in october- i just found out- going to st. louis- seeing demons in the catholic church- it is fun watching them move about- slithering their disgusting tounge of deciet of moving arms to hold when repulsion is all we need ( Read more... )

"so one last touch and then you’ll go and we’ll pretend that it was so much more- but it was vile and it was cheap- yeah she was beautiful but she didn’t mean a thing to me- yeah you are beautiful but you don’t mean a thing to me”

letting it slip away- but i do write every day- I can’t escape it- even when I am down, as I have been recently, it still slips out and makes me see what I am really feeling and don’t want to accept- but after it has come out on the paper, I can’t ignore it- it is the truth- and sometimes I do write lies- I surprise myself with my spitefulness, but ( Read more... )

so much has happened since I last wrote- I was left to fading memory and time without an explanation or a word- I am getting over it all now and I am doing a fine job of it, if you ask me- my dialogues are getting better, I think- I have been using them a lot lately- what really matters is that I am not so much sad anymore- I am getting things ( Read more... )

I have no letters I have no mail- I have no one to write to anyway as of now- maybe a friend who’s far away or a sister with days off from hurricanes- it’s slipping away- the memory….i don’t know if I want to let it go- I might be disappointed- I might be broken- I might be anything but empty as I think I am ( Read more... )

Excerpt from “Expo ‘86 ( Read more... )

I find that I am really pessimistic- earlier today I just thought it was realism- but after reading august 17th’s entry- I just have to be honest with myself and admit it- I know that people have been saying that for years and all the time I have said I was being realistic- so now I guess is the time to give up ( Read more... )

what a long week- ever since I finished classes and work time has really flown- only two weeks left before I go back- and surprisingly, I am torn- when I was in Nashville I didn't want to leave to come back here, but now that I am here I don't want to go anywhere else- recent events have put things into perspective- I love my friends here and there ( Read more... )

it is only one and i feel like the day is almost over- at least it could be- a happy ending to a day- but, it is still early and there are so many other great things that have yet to happen- tiffany should be here in a few hours- pictures of good times are almost done- but, besides all that- this morning was surprisingly pleasant- i don't think i ( Read more... )

I am still taken aback by the goings on of last night- so many great things happened, as is to be expected from long parties like that- first a few people wandered in with their herb and smiles, then a wave of youngins came and left shortly thereafter, after taking too many shots for their tiny bodies and puking or half passing out before stumbling ( Read more... )