Courtney’s gone- charlotte’s gone- I haven’t written- I haven’t thought- I have just been acting and nothing more complicated than that- I just do what needs to be done- like a job- I go in, I work, and I leave- nothing more- there is no attachment- there is no sense of honor or pride- it is nothing to me- just like many of my actions are- driving ( Read more... )

I read something of mine that I had written in early may- wow, it really takes you back- kinda pulls at your heart as your stomach drops from anxiety, reading that stuff- I don’t know if I am far enough away from the situations of last semester to actually read what I wrote then and reflect from a distance- obviously I am not ready for that ( Read more... )

i guess i never got around to writing in this thing- it seems like so long, anyway- sorry to all those who do read this for accidentally posting that damn nonsense several times- i had hoped that it would go unnoticed, but, to my surprise, it ended up popping up several odd times because of power issues- well, shit- i feel like an ass- i might have ( Read more... )

very rough, but for you Charlotte ( Read more... )

very rough, but for you Charlotte ( Read more... )

very rough, but for you charlotte ( Read more... )

away from the place i used to be at and towards the places i am going to- busy weekend- charlotte's birthday- long monday, it is going to be- i am happy that by talking to him for the first time in weeks i am even more motivated to excersise and get back into shape- not for him, no, but so i can feel at least okay with myself while being around him ( Read more... )

the end of some thoughts ( Read more... )

Since Dana just left and I have some spare time before heading off to class, I think I shall reflect on the very fast, full few days ( Read more... )

“lately I’ve been feeling okay and my hear is wide open, but somehow everything falls into place-and it’s love- and I will find a way to bring the light back to your day and I will show you- I will show you that I- I can change ( Read more... )