i try to empty them out but eventually they fill back up ( Read more... )

This empty room is cold- probably from too little hot breath to warm it- I would like to say that everything is okay now, but I cannot do that without lying- there are still things that cross my mind every so often that paralyze me- stop me dead- as if some cold wind chills me so deep that the shivers petrify me where I stand- and I cannot move ( Read more... )

I realized that this month has felt as if the snowcapped peaks have fallen and met the fertile green valleys of my mind- I am glad that it is over and that now I can look forward to the afternoon showers, and the serenity that the ocean has to offer my turbid mind- I am not so mixed up after this relaxing weekend- my parents had the Feltzs in town ( Read more... )

my blessing was given- here were my thoughts ( Read more... )

i have litte time to regain my sanity and it seems that it is only me who is in this wierd....i don't know what to call it- i have been wroking- been keeping relativly busy and yet even with all the things here to distract me and make me forget- i am not forgetting- i am not really happy- i am not talking- i feel alone- and yet, i know that i am ( Read more... )

hell no to all you people who think so ( Read more... )

and I realize that I cannot read right now ( Read more... )

I’m not ready to go to bed, though I should be- it has been a couple of sleep deprived, stressful, bug-bearing days- my works has gotten done, as tiffany said- but this test tomorrow I am dreading- I just didn’t have enough time- I guess, in theory, I could be studying now, sacrificing my sleep and sanity for a well fought for B- but I am not going ( Read more... )

i have barley been getting the things that are due done, and i am running ragged- needless to say, i am a little stressed out- not so much that i am internalizing it though, but just enough to make it come out when people talk about certain things that get on my nerves ( Read more... )

This past week was mad- I have been writing, but not enough on here I guess- everything that I have written has been weird, vague, or just boring- so I havn’t posted- Courtney, I miss you- it’s been a while- but with all the shit going on this week, I don’t even know if I have time to call- the only reason I have a moment to write now, is because ( Read more... )