Love, the thing that lets us know when we have made a mistake. It's funny how you can hear my voice but still not know that which is in it. Maybe, I am asking to much of you. I feel as though it is something that you can handle. I who am able to see through to that which is impossible. What is it that you need me to do. Must you hear the words or ( Read more... )

Everything has been going smoothly as of late. There isn't really much to complain about.... although Jon is a dick. I have tried to be nice to him. It's like talking to the evil one all over again. Turning things around and making me feel as though I am worthless and stupid. Then again I know that I may not be the smartest person in the world, but ( Read more... )

The only thing that can describe how I feel is lost. In a place that not many have to go. I sit on through and try to understand what comes normally to most. Yet, I still try on and on to make it right but I think I've lost all of the fight that was left in me. Do I think that this is the truth? Well I will still sit here and try yo understand ( Read more... )

I am so shlepy. Usually that wouldn't be so, but never the less.... Well nothing to knew is going on except it's st. P's day. That means a hella big party at mic chris's tonight so I hope to see you all there everyone is welcome. and I do mean everyone well i should get to the gone got to set up for a hella big party ( Read more... )

I am at robby's house right now. Sitting around indulging in bad habits. Talking on the phone but not to Carlie or Francesca because they can't seem to work that complex device called a phone ( Read more... )

I guess I had no Idea what I was talking about. I do hate it when I am wrong. Carlie your awsome I love you! Pick me apart if you were only here I'd .......... (use your own mind for that one) your awsome too. Tgip you said your stuff in person it was sweet. Thanks guys I know that no one really knows whats going on but I am very glad to see that ( Read more... )

I love It when no one can figure out what I say. But no one tried so I feel there to be no reason to answer. I guess that means no one cared but in the end I don't really care if you care. but I guess I should just start writing all these to myself. I mean in the long run if no one comments on my life whats the point in letting you all see it. (I ( Read more... )

I am thinking of you now. I am hurting because of you right now. Then I guess it's all my own. Put there by someone I know. Maybe me but I'm to cold. We all know no one is home. So why do I try to let go. Of a past that I can't hold. Breaking free from all I know. Just so I can end up cold. With a word said I had no voice. One word overpowerd me ( Read more... )

Time is taking forever. When I wait for the bus to go to work I know in my head I am really waiting for my plain ticket to Paris that isn't for 3.5 months so it seems to take a little longer for the bus to come. All day at work I stare at the clock. It's almost like nothing here holds any interest to me. The only thing that seems to go fast is when ( Read more... )

I'm just trying to be normal. My life is so crazy. Blythe is gone and I feel like I have lost my whole world. I try to pretend to everyone that it doesn't hurt me. She is gone for 3 months until I go and see her but it really is kiling me. I miss her so much I wish she was here I need her here. I talk to her on the phone and pretend to be strong, I ( Read more... )