I hate this. He hasn't talked to me for over a week and a half. I hate how crazy it makes me, how much it hurts me. I can't let him go, I don't want to, but at the same time I wish I could. I just wish I had the chance to make things like I knew they could be if we were just in the same place. Things would have been perfect. Why do I lie to myself ( Read more... )

Well its snowing in Miami and its hailing in LA ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure what to do with myself. I've been missing him lately, which has been a mess. I've been a mess in general. Lonely mostly, which makes me wonder if its really him I'm missing or just having someone. No, I'm pretty sure its just him. Its been rough, talking to him, which is ironic. At first when we started talking it was like, my ( Read more... )

We've been talking, its been really nice. a couple days ago he called and we ended up talking for a couple of hours. not quite on the scale we used to, but a vast improvement! It felt so good to be laughing with him again. It really seems like no one really understands me like he does. I can be so off the wall weird and he'll be right there with ( Read more... )

he wrote back...

...things are gonna be ok :*)

ok I won't really eat your soul ( Read more... )

"Dim the lights ( Read more... )

Emailed Spurs and all the rest about shooting at their events, haven't heard back from them yet *stresses* I'd really rather not just show up and shoot...plus I don't know what times they start ect. They might not even have thier games day this weekend, the weather is crap. I really could go for a rodeo.

I'm stuck in this frustrating inbetween ( Read more... )

Schools been keeping me on my toes lately. Just as I figured it would, really, I am running more than fulltime. :P On the plus side I'm  too busy to be misrable, so its working out well...

I hate that damn song...not as much as Hollaback Girl *kills*

Heeeeees on again. because I know you care. well I care and I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who reads this thing so yah. aaaaaaand I'm not going to say anything to him. Why? because I need something to cut myself over tomorrow (kidding...kinda) .....Maybe the bastard is looking for me. Maybe I just know when he comes online now.....no this is ( Read more... )