Epically sad.  What Sunshine has done ... dwarfs anything I've ever seen... He told me it was Trinidad he was going to, to help his father.  He went on a trip to that beasts' home country, Chile.  I have no idea what to say... I told her everything though... no more lies, no more deceit and secrets... it's all out there now.  Whatever that waste ( Read more... )

I spent almost $2k the other day - paid off my fines, paid off the reinstatement fees, withdrew enough for the two day day "Back and Track" course so I can officially go back on to my suspension for one year, and then get my G1.  I then, feeling very "retail therapy" bought the phone that I have needed for a very long time.  I bought the ( Read more... )

What an incredible trip away! I swam in the lake, hit the beach, hiked 18km total in two days with 35,000 steps and even stood under a beautiful waterfall! I've never done that in my life! it was incredible to see my friends and their son; and it was even more wonderful that nothing hindered it. I got home early enough and worked from home Monday ( Read more... )

I dream of Sunshine pretty much constantly and last night was no exception.  I often re-think in my brain what we have done and how I felt, the connections and attractions, the comfort and the smell of "home" in him....I dreamt of him last night and woke aching and when that happens, I itch to message.  I didn't though.

I am sore from working out ( Read more... )

Every day I value my career and my boss.  Every moment I am grateful for all I've learned and how happy I am to have this career, this office, this company and HIM. He's an amazing teacher and pretty much the only dad I have in my physical area anymore, with my foster parents gone north-sh and even then...

Today, I am trying to hold on to that ( Read more... )

I had this nasty dream last night wherein my old Supervisor and Candice were here and they were conspiring and I was trying to keep up with them, to be on "their team" but it seemed every time I went to my desk to get my stuff or meet them I was "just a tad behind" them; and a guy at my dream-work I had a crush on, and Candice took him and I had to ( Read more... )

I have been working on a file that isn't mine for over a month; it has nothing to do with Bossman or even this office, but as the incoming call queue for this branch I am the one that responds to those requests.  Normally, it is a matter of passing off the call to the correct adjuster or advising of something minor but this one file has dragged on ( Read more... )

Every day is hard but every day I move forward.  Between the amount of hours I work, the promotion I received last year, and the work I do in the office everything is just trudging ahead - I wish it would go faster but I suppose this is my time.  I've put in tons and tons of hours, and training, and now hold an account for trust approvals and ( Read more... )

Everything was too easy and I should have known something was coming - while I completely expected I would get nailed at some point for my overstepping in the office, the Branch Manager couldn't get me for my performance so she went deeper - apparently having sat on my licensing application for the last four months so the promotion, the billable ( Read more... )

Today is dad's ceremony and while I am not nervous, it'll be a hard day.  I have to represent the best I can, while not crying, and trying to support my Ma, but do it all while standing in front of a camera again.  Not that I mind the cameras, per se, given I am somewhat used to them, but it's something I do not aspire to continue with for the rest ( Read more... )