Haven't posted in a while because I hadn't thought of it but the reality of it is, things are mostly good? I had a few bad days wherein I was being swallowed by the dark side and drank it away, was sick but got better fast realizing how much I have to hold on to now - and work is the only forefront I have.  Each time I threaten to go down, it's ( Read more... )

I was trying to write all the time but work has taken over my life, in a good and positive way that is.  I am so busy taking on so much work between my own career, my promotion to licensed administrator, the duties I have taken on given Kathy is quite literally never around nor does she answer any emails, and the fights between the two Vice ( Read more... )

Sunshine was here yesterday afternoon after work and we did amazing, disgusting things in the gender neutral bathroom.  He was "supposed" to come Friday for the day except, I cancelled it. Why? because Saturday he's going to Ottawa with the other thing for his cousin's 50th birthday. So, let's get this straight: you want to spend the day fucking ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I posted.  There used to be a time where I'd mandate myself to post everything and than catch up if something was missed. Maybe it was to keep a reminder of what happened or maybe document my life, but in any event, today I sum up the basics.  I was supposed to get a promotion, which would have come to a raise, but while in ( Read more... )

It's so strange sometimes - I feel like I am doing so well, and then I feel like I have failed and I am going down the tubes.  This morning I woke up and felt like I was being fired; that I overstepped.  That I haven't worked hard enough and I am heavy, and there's a reason no one wants me.  I feel my chest resting against a fat roll on my stomach ( Read more... )

I am working from home tomorrow and Monday due to the mass amounts of summaries my boss has me doing.  While awesome and provides billable hours, it's always very, very, inundating.  That being said, at home tomorrow means I can cry all day....

It's Sunshine's son's birthday tomorrow.  I am, as everyone knows, an absolute mess on those days and ( Read more... )

This has been a long week and it's only Wednesday - not that it's a big deal; I had a lot of successes this week! super docketed my time at work, got summaries done, did a lot of extra work I don't normally do, hit the gym last night and even though I wasn't going to go given my dress ripped and there were not one but TWO gigantic holes in it, I ( Read more... )

My exhaustion is unbelievable today and I am not so sure it's the weather anymore...I thought my migraines/nausea was that, but the weather has massively calmed down and the only thing I've done is change my diet to allow less intake and more activity...But this morning I woke up and pressed snooze three times, and I NEVER do that.

I did have a ( Read more... )

Yesterday was an unbelievably bad day.  It started out like every other day, messaging Ma, getting ready for work, and she Facetime called me when I hit the subway.

She was going on a rant about how she's glad I went to the gym, because I have to look my BEST in September, as it's the event for the commemoration of my dad and his achievements, ( Read more... )

The emotions that I have today are of grief, and a lot of it.

Saturday my foster family attended the celebration of life of their mother/grandmother who passed last year, and given COVID they were unable to do anything so they did it last weekend, but then yesterday Bossman's mom passed and it dredged up so much between grief and sadness.  I didn' ( Read more... )